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Post by fellowmder on Nov 7, 2019 8:53:43 GMT
People, i am boosted up by Serenity and want to put up my own notebook(once again) on the forum. This time i cannot held back really. You guys have tried doing things to control your bad habits and madd. I am going to do the same. If anyone of you have read my threads before, you must have realised i am more of suffering from the bad habits that i acquired as a daydreamer. I have added one to that as well that subsides my daydreaming but makes me fell more and more guilty about the way i am living my life - masturbating. i actually don't feel like much talking about that to anyone but it is just something that does delay my work or makes me too lazy to work overnight. It is just another escape root that i found for myself, with watching dramas, movies, eating and daydreaming following it up. I need to be accountable and more responsible and work in the gears that others are now racing in. So, here i will write every day about what all i want to accomplish first thing in the morning and give updates as to whether i were able to instill something different in my life and push back my habits a bit farther away. Some things might not be understandable or might be just me ranting about my problems but please bear with me. Todays task is to gauge sizes of three rooms and put it down on paper Complete fully describing my sectional essay and introduction Do some InDesign for half an hour Reach college tomorrow by 7
I know it is too much but i have to do it. This will also work as my other to do list and then i will finally write as to whether i achieved anything or not. I hope I can motivate myself and others through this Thankyou for reading
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Post by fellowmder on Feb 19, 2020 14:01:22 GMT
Hi guys Today I don't know if I am high on something or what but a lot of positive energy is running through me. Today I gave my name for a committee. I am going to participate for an event 15 days from now. I want to join things and not just care about studies. I want to evolve myself to the best way possible, socializing and working with strangers. It is roller coaster sorts. Let's see how far I get with my to do list today. People reading, keep your spirits up!! Thanks for reading.
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Post by alvi on Feb 19, 2020 20:49:04 GMT
Hi guys Today I don't know if I am high on something or what but a lot of positive energy is running through me. Today I gave my name for a committee. I am going to participate for an event 15 days from now. I want to join things and not just care about studies. I want to evolve myself to the best way possible, socializing and working with strangers. It is roller coaster sorts. Let's see how far I get with my to do list today. People reading, keep your spirits up!! Thanks for reading. This is great, what is the event you will be participating in?
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Post by fellowmder on Feb 20, 2020 15:35:55 GMT
Hi guys Today I don't know if I am high on something or what but a lot of positive energy is running through me. Today I gave my name for a committee. I am going to participate for an event 15 days from now. I want to join things and not just care about studies. I want to evolve myself to the best way possible, socializing and working with strangers. It is roller coaster sorts. Let's see how far I get with my to do list today. People reading, keep your spirits up!! Thanks for reading. This is great, what is the event you will be participating in? Thanks for cheering me up alvi. I will be joining the committee for Stage decoration.
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Post by fellowmder on Sept 9, 2020 2:24:45 GMT
Hi guys It has been long since I wrote my last post. Since then, I completed my first year, my second year is mid-way done. Thankyou to everyone who read this; re-reading things from past is making me feel good right now. I didn't reach out these months on the forum because i thought i was not going anywhere with life. During my vacation i don't remember doing anything except daydreaming- i would give reading book a headstart and end up giving into daydreaming in a day or so. I have read a lot of posts here about how it is hard, in this situation , to control ourselves from daydreaming. Whatever input i tried to make for a year has drained out this lockdown. My entire August month I don't really remember doing anything except daydreaming- everyone in my family goes out for their job so when i am home alone I feel this heavy suffocation- i have cried a lot in front of my mom, sometimes just begging her to take a leave and stay with me in the afternoon because i was scared back then, what if my life becomes as miserable as it was before college. It is all repeating and this month i don;t even care anymore i guess- my daydreaming spree this week has been tiring, toiling over my work- i am skipping classes because i don't have any work to show them- it is getting frustrating. I am procrastinating so much, feeling like there is no result of whatever id do so lets just not do anything (i know i should work hard, but i cannot concentrate at all). my procrastination is like working on the same thing after 5 hours of daydreaming. it is crazy and i don't know how to get out of this binder. Thanks for reading and supporting me through this.
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Post by fellowmder on Sept 14, 2020 14:09:34 GMT
i have been trying to catch up since last three days. i really can't say that i did great but this time I tried to tell all my bad habits no, i tried to catch myself from daydreaming and told myself that if i'd work right now, i'd feel better. But after my online class, i am feeling very much like ill crawl back to the same old me- daydreaming, binge watching and eating. I would really like that i take these days as inspiration and continue getting slightly better everyday. Hopefully, everyone of us is trying! Thanks for reading
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Post by fellowmder on Sept 20, 2020 2:56:04 GMT
since last three weeks i have been taking my life very leniently. All of my habits are just coming to get me- i eat unhealthy food and big chunks of it, i don't work at all and bunk my classes, right now i am not even caring for my exam that is tomorrow. What i realized was thar last week's guilt of not studying, i am pushing it in as daydreaming for this week- it is a pathetic cycle of not working, feeling guilty, again daydreaming. Whenever i put myself for work, i can just see myself failing over and over again and not coming out of it- so i give upon myself in 5 minutes--i go back to daydreaming. I dont know how to get out of this. if anyone has found themselves in a similar situation, then what did you do to overcome it? What helped to gain some confidence and restart your life? Thanks for reading
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