Post by legendarydarkknight on Apr 20, 2020 11:59:46 GMT
This one's a personal problem for me. I used to read books, and loved to do so. At the high-school, I had this particular fantasy-medieval adventure book series which I started to 'storify' in my head; like it was a series and every episode was around two chapters. I read all the books of the series as the author published them (it's a new series, nothing ground-breaking like LotR, for example), which spanned all my high-school life. At the college, my reading rate insanely dropped, as the series came to an end as well and a spin-off series began about it, featuring a nation I'm VERY MUCH fond of. But I couldn't read them. It went off nicely (but offly) in the first three books; and then I could barely finish the fourth one. It's got like, five more books out there, and I even haven't touched them. It's partly due to me losing interest in the series, but it's mostly that I don't want to return to that format in my head again. Which is nice... except I can't read books anymore.
For clearance, for the first two years, I just read those last 4 books. Then for a year (which was also my breakdown year for several points), I haven't read any books; I just took a look at the random pages or the pages I liked, and reenacted them in my head. Only roughly two years ago (after the breakdown period) did I slowly started to read. I bought 'Count of Monte Kristo', but I couldn't finish it (550 pages, could only make it to half). Then I met the glorious writer Stefan Zweig's books, which were a lot richer than it had pages. I read a few like 'Chess' and 'Letters from an Unknown Woman'; but now I'm trying to read 'A Fantastic Night' for… like 6 months now. Beforehand, I also read 'The Little Prince', which would or wouldn'tve come a lot handier if I read it in my childhood years.
The thing is, I don't like reading books anymore. But I feel like I should. I should be reading them. I know their importance on a person on nearly all areas, but I can't. I don't friggin want to. Whenever I get bored but I push myself forward, I either find myself delved into my own universe in like 10 mins (with stuff completely irrelevant to the book I'm reading), or I outright start
insanely (having intrusive thoughts, but saying like that I feel like I put all the blame on the thoughts while I am the one them). Which means I'm either drugging myself or punishing myself. And I can't decide which one's worse.
I don't know what to do about this. I need to do something, but I'm
if I want to. I'm trying mindfulness time to time, but it's not working so well so far. I'll try harder about it, but I want to know what are your methods of reading or doing something necessary if you have a focus problem. I know the first rule of this is 'do what you love', but not reading. I need to read, don't I?
For clearance, for the first two years, I just read those last 4 books. Then for a year (which was also my breakdown year for several points), I haven't read any books; I just took a look at the random pages or the pages I liked, and reenacted them in my head. Only roughly two years ago (after the breakdown period) did I slowly started to read. I bought 'Count of Monte Kristo', but I couldn't finish it (550 pages, could only make it to half). Then I met the glorious writer Stefan Zweig's books, which were a lot richer than it had pages. I read a few like 'Chess' and 'Letters from an Unknown Woman'; but now I'm trying to read 'A Fantastic Night' for… like 6 months now. Beforehand, I also read 'The Little Prince', which would or wouldn'tve come a lot handier if I read it in my childhood years.
The thing is, I don't like reading books anymore. But I feel like I should. I should be reading them. I know their importance on a person on nearly all areas, but I can't. I don't friggin want to. Whenever I get bored but I push myself forward, I either find myself delved into my own universe in like 10 mins (with stuff completely irrelevant to the book I'm reading), or I outright start
insanely (having intrusive thoughts, but saying like that I feel like I put all the blame on the thoughts while I am the one them). Which means I'm either drugging myself or punishing myself. And I can't decide which one's worse.I don't know what to do about this. I need to do something, but I'm
if I want to. I'm trying mindfulness time to time, but it's not working so well so far. I'll try harder about it, but I want to know what are your methods of reading or doing something necessary if you have a focus problem. I know the first rule of this is 'do what you love', but not reading. I need to read, don't I?
you can't even read a book for an hour? Shame on you" But it's not that way, really. Just as leaving bad addictions, readapting the good ones are hard as heck. At least for me, whose will-power can't even move a smol rock. Taking it slow and little is the key for both, though. Thank you for the advice and sharing your own struggle. I'm sure you'll get back to it step by step once this period is over.