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Post by Sam on Jul 1, 2020 19:35:59 GMT
Well, we're apparently halfway through the year already, which doesn't seem accurate because it feels like January was like 2 days ago *cue very loud screaming*
Now that we've got my regularly scheduled existential panic about the passage of time out of the way, onto the thread.
As always, this thread is a place where you can post about any goals you might have and give and receive encouragement in achieving them. Sticking to goals can be really, really difficult for MDers, so we wanted to create a place where you have some sense of accountability about them. The goals can be big or small, short term or long term, and about anything, MD-related or not.
I often post monthly goals for myself, and I make a new thread each month (so that it doesn't get super long and cluttered), but you can post about goals as short term as today or even this hour, or as far into the future as you'd like.
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Post by Sam on Jul 30, 2020 19:02:29 GMT
You could mention them as being stims? That's essentially what they are anyways. Would stepping back and fourth qualify as stims? It's a repetitive behavior, so yeah.
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Post by Sam on Aug 1, 2020 23:44:05 GMT
I'm starting my summer class today, so my main goal for this month is really just going to be maintaining a healthy balance in my life. I have a terrible habit of focusing only on school and allowing everything else--socializing, leisure time, even personal care--to take a back burner. So I want to make sure that I don't do that. As per my therapist's instruction, I need to work on sitting with my emotions. I have trouble processing my emotions, which causes me to run away from them (usually by daydreaming) and I need to work on not doing that. The first step in processing your emotions and experiences is sitting with them and allowing them to be. If I'm feeling lonely, I need to sit with that and accept what I'm feeling. Emotions aren't wrong or bad, and they don't make me wrong or bad. And no matter how unpleasant they might feel, they can't hurt me, and its important that I just sit with them. I'd also like to try to pleasure read a little bit. I may not have a lot of time with my class, but I've been completely unmotivated to read 98% of the time since like December of last year. I've started and not finished at least 6 books, which is super unlike me. So I'd like to try to read, to take advantage of that 2% of the time that I do feel motivated to read, and read just a little bit. Maybe after a while of doing that, I'll end up with the motivation to read more. I think I did a pretty good job of maintaining a healthy balance this month. As always, I got a bit overwhelmed at the beginning of the term, but I got into a routine and it worked out pretty well. Also, through my timing of how much time I was spending on different tasks (so that I could visualize what my balance was looking like), I found out that even though it feels like I'm spending way too long doing schoolwork, I'm not actually doing any more than the recommended time, which was nice to discover. I haven't been doing super great at sitting with my emotions. I'm having trouble getting over the instant satisfaction and relief of avoiding them. Logically I know that sitting with them is better in the long term, but its still hard to motivate myself to do it. I finished reading a book that I'd been trying to finish since December, I listened to an audiobook, and I started reading another book. Not great, but better than nothing. I'm trying to get back into listening to audiobooks at least since I can listen to them while doing other things.
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