New here but not New to MD

Hi, I am R. I Have been daydreaming I don't know how long maybe since my early childhood or early teenage years, can't figure out. I have all of the symptoms of MD. I am terrified when I try to her rid of this BC I just can't. I am afraid to be like this in future. I am seeing a therapist but I couldn't tackled it yet. If you know anything helps please let ne know. If I experience something helpfull I will let you know. I think it wasn't my fault to be like this but I should have the ability to overcome.