Why I think I have MADD

During my childhood, I was abused at home, and bullied at school. I didn't have a since of belonging in my family, due to having a different father from my mother's older two children, and for not being as close to my first cousins as they were to each other. I remember not being allowed to go outside until after 12 Noon. I remember details of molestation, which other adults in the family repeatedly rubbed in my face, without actually getting my abuser any help ( abuser was another older family member). I remember being beat up a lot, then being blamed for it. I remember being threatened with being thrown in Foster care, whenever my behavior was an annoyance to my mother. I remember going through a lot in my childhood.