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Post by foxyfox on Dec 3, 2023 8:18:39 GMT
 I have MD already for about 25 years. I thought I learned how to cope and learned to enjoy this condition. I also have a chronicle depression for about last 8 years that is periodically cured with antidepressants but periodically not due to different reasons. I am in therapy and my therapist knows about my MD and willingly discuss it as a part of my life. And we discussed how my MD influenced that I see life as grey and boring because all exciting moments I can dream repeatedly in my head. I never though that MD influenced that way and then reading the internet stories I realised that it might be a real problem for me. For last 2 years I was searching things that I like to overcome depression and was quite unsuccessful in it. I travel a lot, I have hobbies but I noticed that with time even small things that were bringing me joy before starts vanishing and it is scary. Does anybody have the same and how do you cope? My therapist offered to accept that life is boring and is not like my MD, but I found it a bit strange advice. I know that my life is not MD and I am successful in my everyday duties but I want to live the joyful life because otherwise don't understand the meaning of everything. |
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lisal
New Daydreamer
All of life is peaks and valleys. Don't let the peaks get too high and the valleys too low
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Post by lisal on Dec 6, 2023 4:07:51 GMT
I would tell you to get a routine. Start analyzing how your day must go on. Try to go out more. Take a walk, go visit some places with your friends, family or even by yourself. One thing I will tell. Even in your daydream, you are not spending with yourself, you are spending time on imaginary people whose behavior is decided by you. We forget how fun it is to spend time with yourself.
One more thing I realized is that as we grow we start spending more time indoor - whether it is home or work. It is among those four walls always. The way your therapist has said is really beautiful. Yes life is boring. To get that dopamine rush I started daydreaming. Now I am just addicted to it. MD is very similar to addiction. So the first main point is to stay away from the trigger points. Make yourself busy and try to avoid it as much as possible.
I will start a one month challenge. I will set a routine and follow that. It will include meditation and yoga. going for a walk in evening. Taking care of my skin and hair. Start having some hobbies. Search for something new each day.
Let us fight against MD together.
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Post by foxyfox on Dec 8, 2023 9:26:26 GMT
Thank you for an answer!
I must say I have routines, cause I have been fighting with depression for long time and I had to create routines to survive. I created beautiful life I must say (this was the point why I came to therapy again, cause I followed all advice! But still not happy). I can choose places to live and I travel to beautiful places, rent places with sea view just next to the beach or live in forest with foxes and deers around. I walk every day, I plan my meals and eat healthy food. I do sport and have hobbies. I do meditations and basically everything that is suggested.
One thing that I don't do, I don't think about my daydreaming as a bad thing. It is an addiction I understand, but I don't have any other addictions, I leave pretty healthy life: I study, work, etc. Also, currently my daydreaming takes about 5% of my daily time. So it became pretty healthy as well and under control.
First I was working with therapist about things that I want. And now we faced the problem with my MD that was not visible before. And as I understand, my life is not that I want, and I want to live the life of my MD. I would be happy if there will be a way to return excitement about ordinary life but I ran out of ideas.
I think what I experience is somehow postMD syndrome (well, I am academic myself). I would very much listen to stories where people overcome their addiction and deal with consequences of it.
I see that people discuss how to control MD, how to live life with MD. I did it all, but outcome is harsh. We don't discuss what we are loosing during our life with MD, how our brain changes. How our dopamine level changes.
I eat dopamine supplements constantly btw. It helps a bit.
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I have MD already for about 25 years. I thought I learned how to cope and learned to enjoy this condition. I also have a chronicle depression for about last 8 years that is periodically cured with antidepressants but periodically not due to different reasons. I am in therapy and my therapist knows about my MD and willingly discuss it as a part of my life. And we discussed how my MD influenced that I see life as grey and boring because all exciting moments I can dream repeatedly in my head. I never though that MD influenced that way and then reading the internet stories I realised that it might be a real problem for me. 