Post by elioelioelio on Feb 21, 2019 18:47:57 GMT
Hi, so I didn't realise that I had it until today when I discovered that overly day dreaming was a thing.
I feel like I've been doing it my whole life, when I was younger to songs when I went to bed, dreaming about situations that weren't too out of the ordinary, about boys I fancied, my exes, situations where I could meet them again etc.
But I now realise that I have spent hours and hours and hours probably speaking to myself and I'd rather live in my idealised world than my normal one.
I'm 23 and live in London and live with my boyfriend and have an amazing network of friends but I feel like I can't speak to anyone about this because they'd think I was insane?
I've suffered with anxiety, depression and in the process of recovery for eating disorders and had PTSD.
But I often get so attached and I feel too much. Like I romanticise books and films and watch the same film over and over again.
I've rewatched Call Me By Your Name about three times in three days and I'll play the soundtrack and day dream about running away to Northern Italy and being 'free'. I feel like I spend so much time inside that I do just end up fantasising whenever I can.
Whether it's before I go to sleep, when I'm in the shower or just in the day time.
I find that I'll make up people (sometimes) but more often than not it'll be about previous relationships and I'll imagine and romanticise them.
I write poetry and read and watch films a lot and I guess I romanticise a lot of things excessively.
But I guess I didn't realise this was a problem until i came onto this forum.
I don't think it's interfering with my every day life, but it is draining my productivity and I'm tired all of the time and I feel like this mixed in with anxiety and depression makes me emotional.
I'll cry a lot, and feel a lot all the time...
It was weird, after I finished CMBYN I felt as though I had re-experienced/re-lived my first ever heartbreak???
I know I think too much and I get attached so easily and I have an addictive personality, but I think if I think too much it'll ruin me?
I feel like I've been doing it my whole life, when I was younger to songs when I went to bed, dreaming about situations that weren't too out of the ordinary, about boys I fancied, my exes, situations where I could meet them again etc.
But I now realise that I have spent hours and hours and hours probably speaking to myself and I'd rather live in my idealised world than my normal one.
I'm 23 and live in London and live with my boyfriend and have an amazing network of friends but I feel like I can't speak to anyone about this because they'd think I was insane?
I've suffered with anxiety, depression and in the process of recovery for eating disorders and had PTSD.
But I often get so attached and I feel too much. Like I romanticise books and films and watch the same film over and over again.
I've rewatched Call Me By Your Name about three times in three days and I'll play the soundtrack and day dream about running away to Northern Italy and being 'free'. I feel like I spend so much time inside that I do just end up fantasising whenever I can.
Whether it's before I go to sleep, when I'm in the shower or just in the day time.
I find that I'll make up people (sometimes) but more often than not it'll be about previous relationships and I'll imagine and romanticise them.
I write poetry and read and watch films a lot and I guess I romanticise a lot of things excessively.
But I guess I didn't realise this was a problem until i came onto this forum.
I don't think it's interfering with my every day life, but it is draining my productivity and I'm tired all of the time and I feel like this mixed in with anxiety and depression makes me emotional.
I'll cry a lot, and feel a lot all the time...
It was weird, after I finished CMBYN I felt as though I had re-experienced/re-lived my first ever heartbreak???
I know I think too much and I get attached so easily and I have an addictive personality, but I think if I think too much it'll ruin me?
because now that I’ve realised I have it or do it I’m trying to stop myself from doing it...