The best and worst of me.

My mdd is like a blessing and a curse, making it hard for me to quit. Lately, I use my mdd to practice conversations with real people in my life, like my doctor. I’m also using it to prepare for an upcoming job interview. I daydream scenarios over and over again, talking to myself. It can take up my entire day if I let it, and I get nothing done. I feel like my brain is in a tunnel, and I hate it. I’m especially bad about talking to myself in the car.

The thing is, these daydreams help me gather my thoughts, practice social skills and gain self-confidence. I truly want to be done with it for good, I just wouldn’t know how to have a conversation without it.

kris