Very Confused and Still Trying to Understand MDing

hi, I'm new here since I just found out what MD is and that I actually have it. At first I thought it was just childhood fantasies that kind of stayed in my head for quite some time, but as years passed and I became older, I noticed that these actually stayed (although some seemed to have disappeared) and a new plot even formed. Right now there are two plots that are the most vivid and are triggered more often since they have so much to do with me trying to cope up with the negative stuff that's going on rn... But it is definitely not helping. Although I dont plan on quitting since as an artist and a writer my daydreams do help A LOT on creating detailed plots and as an event organizer it helps me plan very well for events but at the cost of me losing focus on reality and sometimes forgetting so much of it. All I want is to control it, to somehow minimize the times per day that I daydream which right now is pretty much 60% of my waking hours. I've come to the point that I can't tell if some of my memories are daydreams or had really occured. I'm also having problems with my memory. Considering that I have placed most of my energy to daydreaming, memory retrieval has become harder and executing my daydreams into reality has become harder than ever. Sometimes I just space out and wonder off uncontrollably... There is not therapist near my area either who's familiar with MD so I'm basically alone. I hope being here would actually make me feel less alone and understand morw about my experience.