Post by yourdadcallsmekatya on Feb 16, 2020 13:44:44 GMT
hi, my name is alex, i'm a trans man, i'm gay, and i found out that MD is a thing just a few weeks ago. i've been daydreaming a lot for the last 7 years. they were mostly centred around romance, but after i started dating my boyfriend a year and two months ago, they've been almost exclusively platonic, with the only romantic daydreams i ever have being about my boyfriend, and those ones are just regular daydreams. the subjects of my daydreams have always been celebrities that i've fixated on at different points in my life. it started when i was about 10, which was both when my parents got divorced, which, due to the reasons why they got divorced, caused me to develop anxiety, depression, and long term memory loss, and when i got really into fandom culture, specifically youtubers and musicians. it's really one, eight year long, elaborate daydream, with the only things changing being my gender identity (i realised i was trans when i was 13), my specific aspirations for my future (which always involved me having some kind of music career and living in a big city, something that i'm currently actively pursuing), and whoever my main celebrity crush is at any given time.
TW for after this point: sexual abuse, death, gender dysphoria
they were really bad for a really long time, getting even worse specifically in 2014, 2015, 2017, and the end of 2018. it's probably important to note that in 2014, i had literally no friends and was being tormented daily by a girl in my class, and i had also started noticing my gender dysphoria, my grandfather and cat that my mum had had since before i was even born died, and my mum got remarried to my stepfather, in 2015, i came out as not straight and trans, and also started high school, 2017 was by far the worst year of my life for a lot of reasons, and in 2018 i was catfished by my now ex friend who pretended to be a guy for 7 months, and at the end of 2018, that same ex friend tried to rape me in a movie theatre, because she was attracted to me and mad that i'm gay (i came out as gay earlier that year, i had identified as bi or pansexual up until that point since 2015).
i'm seeing my psychologist tomorrow, and i'm considering talking to her about this whole thing.
hope y'all have a good day/night
TW for after this point: sexual abuse, death, gender dysphoria
they were really bad for a really long time, getting even worse specifically in 2014, 2015, 2017, and the end of 2018. it's probably important to note that in 2014, i had literally no friends and was being tormented daily by a girl in my class, and i had also started noticing my gender dysphoria, my grandfather and cat that my mum had had since before i was even born died, and my mum got remarried to my stepfather, in 2015, i came out as not straight and trans, and also started high school, 2017 was by far the worst year of my life for a lot of reasons, and in 2018 i was catfished by my now ex friend who pretended to be a guy for 7 months, and at the end of 2018, that same ex friend tried to rape me in a movie theatre, because she was attracted to me and mad that i'm gay (i came out as gay earlier that year, i had identified as bi or pansexual up until that point since 2015).
i'm seeing my psychologist tomorrow, and i'm considering talking to her about this whole thing.
hope y'all have a good day/night
