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Post by jaderedwood on Apr 16, 2020 6:46:29 GMT
Forty-five minutes ago, my life was, my life. Completely normal, normal to me. Then I got on instagram and scrolled through some posts on the home page and came across a joke about MD. Never heard of it before, but as soon as I saw it, I saw me. But I figured it was another joke. My instagram has long picked up that i like jokes. So i googled it to confirm there was no such thing. But there is. So here I sit, being alive to see what I said years ago come to fruition: "One day, years from now, there will be a diagnosis for what I have, but not in my life time." Of course, noone ever knew I was referring to MD (or what I was going through) and neither did I. Im a translator, performing artist and writer who has always struggled with daydreaming. I am in my thirties now and have lived an amazing life so far, in this world. Although, the other world, obviously, was way more exciting . In the last few minutes since I have become aware of this "condition", I have done a test- but I dont know how to measure my results- any link to websites would be appreciated. I also do not know if I like the idea that this is a "condition". I feel as if someone is reaching into my world and trying to take it away. I am a little scared. Glad to have found this forum through healthline.com. In case anyone is interested. Some things I have done over the years on my own that have helped. 1. I was determined to make my life as exciting in this world as the MD world. Ive pursued whatever I can that is close to it. Ive travelled, Ive learnt new languages, Ive carved out my own pathways and Ive pursued having friendships with people with creative goals. 2. Following from experience, I have learned and Ive had a lot of talks with myself about what I imagine is fun and what is actually fun. For example, I always imagine myself being amazing on a horse, where as in reality, I suck and am scared. 3. Ive pursued writing more and that has helped a lot. 4. As a performer, ive conditioned myself to visualize myself training and fall in love with each bit of progress I make. I almost feel like I have a mild version of what was once definitely moderate due to this. It is still a struggle, but I am getting there. 5. When I have had to go into daydreaming, I have tried to take myself out of the world I created and day dream about this world. Make it as real as possible. I started this method at 16 and it seems to be working. There is way less appeal to return to a semi-real world. Nice to meet you all!
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Post by Bluejay on Apr 16, 2020 19:08:01 GMT
Thank you for sharing, I might try the turning MD into reality as much as I can. Welcome and nice to meet you!
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Post by annarb on Apr 20, 2020 22:30:16 GMT
I can relate to this so much. I feel like I imagined so many of the exciting things that have happened in my life so many times over before they happened that I willed them into existence. I too love story telling and even the bad stuff I think about how it will make a good story to tell. I've said yes to everything and left no stone unturned so at least it I die tomorrow there are little what ifs left for me to consider. The only thing I feel that has been wasted so far is my characters and my stories that are stuck in my head!
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Post by alvi on Apr 21, 2020 13:22:09 GMT
Welcome to the forum
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Post by 4leafrose on Apr 23, 2020 2:58:39 GMT
This is such good advice qwq Thank you for sharing! I've made the mistake in my own world to make it so much more amazing than the real world that it kinda depresses me to live my real life... I've got big dreams and life goals but haven't achieved them yet and so it's easy to get discouraged and turn to a world where I already have it all. I think I'll take your advice and work on toning down the daydreams and making my real life more exciting.
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Post by piphirho on May 17, 2020 10:06:38 GMT
To answer your question... no. I don't think you are screwed. You seem to have dealt with this well and incorporated it into your life. Better than me, it sounds like, and I think I have done pretty well with it.
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