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Post by Sam on May 4, 2020 20:09:26 GMT
Here is the accountability/goals thread for the month of May! This is a place to talk about your goals (short or long term) and to give and receive encouragement in achieving them.
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Post by Sam on May 4, 2020 20:23:52 GMT
I actually have some stuff to do this month. I'm on summer break, but I need to take my math and English placement exams so that I can register for my fall classes. I also have some appointments that I need to go to (they're telemedicine appointments but still). And I want to taper down my antidepressant a bit while I'm on break. Not much, just a little, so this month I'd like to at least start.
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Post by sarah on May 8, 2020 9:09:19 GMT
Firstly I need to get back my old sleeping patterns. Under Lv 4 lockdown in my country all my classes were cancelled which lead to me dding until dawn and sleeping all day but now we're at Lv 3 which means the construction site over the fence is back in action making alot of noise from 8am in the morning so I need to go back to being awake during the day. Of course it doesn't help that the medication I'm on makes it I need 11-12 hours sleep and if I wake up before that Im very tired. Under Lv 2 my classes will start up again so I will need to be up for them too.
Secondly I need to clean my flat since I'm been busy dding most of the night and in bed all day it's been very neglected lately.
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Post by someone on May 11, 2020 0:16:00 GMT
I have a few incompletes in place that would allow me to finish classes without failing or doing poorly and losing any scholarships. My goal is to get mostly through my behind work this month because I only have until mid June to be done in order to renew one of my scholarships. I'm going to be working to get those incompletes completed so I can have that grade in on time for my scholarship once I'm finished with the one class that didn't give me an incomplete. I just have today and maybe tomorrow for that.
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Post by Sam on May 11, 2020 22:19:30 GMT
I have a few incompletes in place that would allow me to finish classes without failing or doing poorly and losing any scholarships. My goal is to get mostly through my behind work this month because I only have until mid June to be done in order to renew one of my scholarships. I'm going to be working to get those incompletes completed so I can have that grade in on time for my scholarship once I'm finished with the one class that didn't give me an incomplete. I just have today and maybe tomorrow for that. This is a good goal. Could you break it down to a daily or weekly basis? In my opinion, it's generally easier to do a big and rather ambiguous task like that if you break it down into smaller, more measurable pieces. Like if you have 50 things to do and 5 weeks to do them, its really easy to get hung up on the number of things you have to do, panic, and avoid doing anything because it reminds you of the huge amount of stuff you have to do. But if you break it down, you have 50 things to do and 5 weeks to do them, so assuming you do work 5 days a week, that's 10 things each week, and only 2 things each day. 2 things each day feels a lot more manageable than 50 things in 5 weeks, even though its the exact same amount of work.
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Post by sarah on May 18, 2020 22:23:17 GMT
I have a few incompletes in place that would allow me to finish classes without failing or doing poorly and losing any scholarships. My goal is to get mostly through my behind work this month because I only have until mid June to be done in order to renew one of my scholarships. I'm going to be working to get those incompletes completed so I can have that grade in on time for my scholarship once I'm finished with the one class that didn't give me an incomplete. I just have today and maybe tomorrow for that. This is a good goal. Could you break it down to a daily or weekly basis? In my opinion, it's generally easier to do a big and rather ambiguous task like that if you break it down into smaller, more measurable pieces. Like if you have 50 things to do and 5 weeks to do them, its really easy to get hung up on the number of things you have to do, panic, and avoid doing anything because it reminds you of the huge amount of stuff you have to do. But if you break it down, you have 50 things to do and 5 weeks to do them, so assuming you do work 5 days a week, that's 10 things each week, and only 2 things each day. 2 things each day feels a lot more manageable than 50 things in 5 weeks, even though its the exact same amount of work. This is the same tactic I use to get my fanfiction written. A whole story is very daunting but one page a day not so much.
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Post by 😴 on May 25, 2020 8:41:04 GMT
I know how you feel. I took Fluvoxamine and got the same results. I will say this, it did eliminate the MD, but the side effect of excessive sleeping was just not worth it. I would sleep 12 hours every workday, 16 hours on days off and wake up feeling like I only got 4 hours of sleep. Then I started taking Adderall IR 5MG because I also have ADD. It worked for me. I have ADD which makes my mind wander, which leads to MD and people staring at me then quickly looking away because I make them uncomfortable, with a few of them asking me "Are you okay?", which makes me self-conscious and triggers my anxiety. Adderall solved this like a domino effect (without ADD there is no MD, without MD there is no anxiety and I get to relax). However, I don't know if this would work if you don't have ADD. Also Adderall has some side effects. It will keep you up late because its a powerful stimulate. I don't even take full pills. I just break them into halves or quarters then only take them every other day or even skip a few days when I feel that the medication is building up too much in my brain. I have also noticed that it makes me less emotional, almost like a robot. Despite all of this, for me it's worth it because for the first time since junior high I can just relax and not have to be on guard trying not to daydream.
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Post by karthick on May 28, 2020 8:29:03 GMT
Being calm ....untill the lockdown is over
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Post by sarah on May 29, 2020 2:14:15 GMT
I know how you feel. I took Fluvoxamine and got the same results. I will say this, it did eliminate the MD, but the side effect of excessive sleeping was just not worth it. I would sleep 12 hours every workday, 16 hours on days off and wake up feeling like I only got 4 hours of sleep. Then I started taking Adderall IR 5MG because I also have ADD. It worked for me. I have ADD which makes my mind wander, which leads to MD and people staring at me then quickly looking away because I make them uncomfortable, with a few of them asking me "Are you okay?", which makes me self-conscious and triggers my anxiety. Adderall solved this like a domino effect (without ADD there is no MD, without MD there is no anxiety and I get to relax). However, I don't know if this would work if you don't have ADD. Also Adderall has some side effects. It will keep you up late because its a powerful stimulate. I don't even take full pills. I just break them into halves or quarters then only take them every other day or even skip a few days when I feel that the medication is building up too much in my brain. I have also noticed that it makes me less emotional, almost like a robot. Despite all of this, for me it's worth it because for the first time since junior high I can just relax and not have to be on guard ptrying not to daydream. I'm on a different class of medicine than an SSRI. Unfortunately all the other medicines simular to the one Im on have even worse side effect profiles so I'm stuck having to put up with the one Im on. Also I notice now not only does it make me oversleep and wake up tired it now also doesn't sedate me predictably when I take it. It used to be it'd sedate me without fail 1-2 hours after taking it but now I'm lucky if it does that within 3 hours. Aderall probably wouldn't suit me since its a stimulant. I once was on bupropion another stimulate. It resulted in me hardly getting any sleep which resulted in my body going into panic attacks. I've talked to the doctor and gotten them to reduce the dosage of the medication I'm on but if the illness it's treating gets worse then I will be between a rock and a hard place having to decide between the symptoms of my illness and debilitating side effects of the medication.
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Post by zadish on May 29, 2020 10:40:58 GMT
My goal is to fix my sleep and waking up routine. I would also like to cook healthy meals and eat at least twice a day. I think once i fix my sleep pattern, it'll be easier to work towards other goals.
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Post by Sam on May 30, 2020 23:48:40 GMT
My goal is to fix my sleep and waking up routine. I would also like to cook healthy meals and eat at least twice a day. I think once i fix my sleep pattern, it'll be easier to work towards other goals. Staying on a regular sleep/wake routine is literally so beneficial in basically every area of your life. What you need to do in order to fix it depends on what it is currently, but I would recommend following proper sleep hygiene (like avoiding caffiene, alcohol, and screens for a while before bed) and making changes gradually (so if you're currently going to sleep at midnight, shoot for 11:45pm, then 11:30, and so on). Alarms can help while you're getting used to it (provided you don't just hit snooze), but make sure that the sound isn't too startling because waking up in fight or flight is just not fun.
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Post by Sam on May 30, 2020 23:55:54 GMT
I actually have some stuff to do this month. I'm on summer break, but I need to take my math and English placement exams so that I can register for my fall classes. I also have some appointments that I need to go to (they're telemedicine appointments but still). And I want to taper down my antidepressant a bit while I'm on break. Not much, just a little, so this month I'd like to at least start. Its not quite the end of the month, but I'm going to post my final update anyways. I've spent the large majority of this month watching criminal minds and doing nothing else, but I still got a fair amount of stuff done, no matter what my brain tries to tell me. I've been working on finishing studying for my math placement exam and I got my English placement exam set for June 5th. Technically, you shouldn't have to study for a placement exam, but I took it last December and didn't get a score high enough to place into the math class I need, so... studying :) I had like 6 appointments this month. It was exhausting, but I got all of my most important medical concerns addressed so that's a relief. And I've already tapered down my antidepressant the amount I was hoping to this summer, though I might taper it down a bit more if I feel up to it. That's actually why I've spent the month watching criminal minds. I started so that I could avoid the anxiety about withdrawal, and then Obsessive Brain took over and hasn't let me do anything else in weeks. I made it through 4 seasons in the first week. I actually ended up deleting Netflix yesterday just so that it would stop tempting me.
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Post by Sam on May 30, 2020 23:56:36 GMT
Does anyone else have any updates for this thread? I'll create a new one for June on Monday.
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Post by sarah on Jun 1, 2020 1:52:17 GMT
I managed to clean up my flat yesterday. I'm still stuck with sleep problems. The medication has been lowered. I'm still bracing to see if my sleep gets better or my illness gets worse. This is only the 3rd day at a reduced dosage so it's too early to tell. My birthday was on the 30th so I'm 32 now.
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