Post by nikolagvoc on May 21, 2020 4:03:24 GMT
Hey guys, nice to meet you all
I have been obsessively daydreaming for as long as I can remember. And I've also been aware that it's anything but normal since about the age of 10 (when I started hiding it).
The way I would describe how my daydreams work would be to point out that I have categorized my daydreams into two separate categories based on the dept of the dream.
Shallow dreams are usually dreams that are concern topics that I have a limited time span (such as a specific work assignment, cooking food, having a meeting....). These dreams are more like potential scenarios that might occur from these events or tasks, progressing from highly probably scenarios to the more outlandish ones. These dreams tend to be easy to break off after a short while, and don't come with any of the physical symptoms that deeper dreams have, so they usually only have the effect of me wasting time.
Deep dreams on the other hand are dreams about any subject that peaks my interest and doesn't have a set time frame (the progression of my career, the planned progression of my workouts.....). Once such a dream gets triggered, my mind starts going through some, to me, reasonable progression of events and their causes and as the dream progresses, it's dept and the symptoms I display do as well. It starts with me getting the urge to take a pencil or pen into my hand and to rapidly move it back and forth. After this, comes the point where I am unable to sit still and I get up and start pacing around, the next symptom that occurs if I let it go on long enough is that one of my eyes moves to the side while the other one stay in it's place while, in lack of a better term, shivering (which I can inexplicably feel happening). Once it gets to this point it becomes impossible to cut the dream off quickly as my vision will remain clouded for 10 minutes or so, during which, I have to continuously stop myself from falling back into the same dream once again. If I don't cut it off at this point and allow it to continue, then the next symptom that I've noticed is that all my muscles freeze up (as if I physically get stuck in the position I am in at that moment), I start moving my arm with the pencil closer to my eyes. This is the end phase of that particular dream and it can take anywhere from one to three hours for the dream to come to it's end. This type of dream is generally more difficult to cut off, even it's initial phase and I often have to completely stop what I'm doing focus on regaining my concentration for a short amount of time (although it all depends on how much that particular trigger affects me.
The reason why I'm writing this is to hopefully find out how much of this is particular to my experience and how much of it is common in people suffering from MDD.
Thank you for reading this rather long post and I hope to hear from you all.
I have been obsessively daydreaming for as long as I can remember. And I've also been aware that it's anything but normal since about the age of 10 (when I started hiding it).
The way I would describe how my daydreams work would be to point out that I have categorized my daydreams into two separate categories based on the dept of the dream.
Shallow dreams are usually dreams that are concern topics that I have a limited time span (such as a specific work assignment, cooking food, having a meeting....). These dreams are more like potential scenarios that might occur from these events or tasks, progressing from highly probably scenarios to the more outlandish ones. These dreams tend to be easy to break off after a short while, and don't come with any of the physical symptoms that deeper dreams have, so they usually only have the effect of me wasting time.
Deep dreams on the other hand are dreams about any subject that peaks my interest and doesn't have a set time frame (the progression of my career, the planned progression of my workouts.....). Once such a dream gets triggered, my mind starts going through some, to me, reasonable progression of events and their causes and as the dream progresses, it's dept and the symptoms I display do as well. It starts with me getting the urge to take a pencil or pen into my hand and to rapidly move it back and forth. After this, comes the point where I am unable to sit still and I get up and start pacing around, the next symptom that occurs if I let it go on long enough is that one of my eyes moves to the side while the other one stay in it's place while, in lack of a better term, shivering (which I can inexplicably feel happening). Once it gets to this point it becomes impossible to cut the dream off quickly as my vision will remain clouded for 10 minutes or so, during which, I have to continuously stop myself from falling back into the same dream once again. If I don't cut it off at this point and allow it to continue, then the next symptom that I've noticed is that all my muscles freeze up (as if I physically get stuck in the position I am in at that moment), I start moving my arm with the pencil closer to my eyes. This is the end phase of that particular dream and it can take anywhere from one to three hours for the dream to come to it's end. This type of dream is generally more difficult to cut off, even it's initial phase and I often have to completely stop what I'm doing focus on regaining my concentration for a short amount of time (although it all depends on how much that particular trigger affects me.
The reason why I'm writing this is to hopefully find out how much of this is particular to my experience and how much of it is common in people suffering from MDD.
Thank you for reading this rather long post and I hope to hear from you all.
