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Post by maladaptine on Jul 1, 2020 2:03:08 GMT
I didn't really think much of my MD until now and felt like it just came out of nowhere for no reason. But after reflecting on it for awhile I realized I've been doing the same stuff I'm doing now (pacing, whispering to myself, facial movements) since middle school and I just didn't want to admit it to myself because I thought I was going insane. Anyone else?
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Post by legendarydarkknight on Jul 1, 2020 5:53:13 GMT
Tbh, I was glad that I found out about this situation, since I was aware I've been doing this for a loooooong while, and the closest mental disturbance I could think of was a different version neurose. One where I was aware of everything, and I wasn't losing the sense of realism, but couldn't stop continuously losing myself in my dreams. If you're talking of finding about this particular situation, then yes, it sounds creepy and wrong (though personally I didn't have much of a rejection; there was always something wrong with me), but finding that it actually had an acknowledged name and people actually suffering from it (sorry if it sounds harsh, but it essentially means I or any of us aren't alone anymore) was one of the greatest reliefs I've felt ever in my life.
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Post by ophelia on Jul 2, 2020 0:55:41 GMT
The way I found out about this was out of nowhere too. I was daydreaming (funny enough) before i was going to bed by midnight. Then, i started to think "is this too much? why am i preferring to daydream more than enjoying the things and people around me in my real life? will it ever stop? i hope no one thinks im weird for playing out conversations in my head, sometimes whispering it/saying it aloud when im alone--just depends on what im expressing in the daydream--, and making hand gestures." then after googling it i just found all these articles, opinion pieces, and this amazing forum. I was scared to accept I had MD because i thought i was alone and was weird for preferring my dreaming realm than whats literally in front of me. I guess i was scared to admit it because I was embarrassed at how accustomed I was to my daydreaming and wanting to be the better version of myself from those dreams. You aren't alone.
I am glad that this phenomenon isn't all in my head (no pun intended). I guess it just gets better over time knowing there's others like me out there.
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