Post by charleigh on Jul 21, 2020 10:44:08 GMT
Hey hope your all okay out there x
I'm not really sure what to do so I guess i'll introduce myself :')
I'm Charleigh im 27 and have been MDing since ii was probably about 6/7 - I can remember in a lot of detail daydreams I used to have from back then, but only recently have a stumbled across MADD, I've daydreamed my way through pretty much everything in life, not realising it was a problem, I guess underneath I knew that i was using it as some kind of wierd coping mechanism as it used to come on something serious whenever i was in trouble, but aside from that it took the place of real friends, and real life experiences, I've gotten to a point where I have no idea who I am, as I've been hiding behind fictional characters this entire time.
I have countless scenarios in my head, ive been part of the army, a professional surfboarder, ninja, demon, alien, some person with schizophrenia --(that one in particular messes with me) - nt to mention all the character in shows and books that I love .. in other words every time I see something that I think is cool I tend to fly off create a character, their family, their friends and love interestes, their mission in life... it gets intense, on a day to day I struggle to stay within my own head, me myself is a pretty boring person.
There was a point recently where I stumbled across dissociative identity disorder and really freaked myself out, im fully aware that my daydreams arent reality and they dont take over my body in a way that i cant stop it, I mean i make the faces and if im alone ill act out scenarios but i know it is'nt real. - after finding out about DID though i think my MD took a turn for the worse, i gave my characters, real space in my head and it felt like i was talking to someone else directly, i've since knocked that on the head, but I didn't half scare myslf for a while there ... yaay lovely brain stuff, sorry for the massive brain dump, im so glad a place like this exists x
I'm not really sure what to do so I guess i'll introduce myself :')
I'm Charleigh im 27 and have been MDing since ii was probably about 6/7 - I can remember in a lot of detail daydreams I used to have from back then, but only recently have a stumbled across MADD, I've daydreamed my way through pretty much everything in life, not realising it was a problem, I guess underneath I knew that i was using it as some kind of wierd coping mechanism as it used to come on something serious whenever i was in trouble, but aside from that it took the place of real friends, and real life experiences, I've gotten to a point where I have no idea who I am, as I've been hiding behind fictional characters this entire time.
I have countless scenarios in my head, ive been part of the army, a professional surfboarder, ninja, demon, alien, some person with schizophrenia --(that one in particular messes with me) - nt to mention all the character in shows and books that I love .. in other words every time I see something that I think is cool I tend to fly off create a character, their family, their friends and love interestes, their mission in life... it gets intense, on a day to day I struggle to stay within my own head, me myself is a pretty boring person.
There was a point recently where I stumbled across dissociative identity disorder and really freaked myself out, im fully aware that my daydreams arent reality and they dont take over my body in a way that i cant stop it, I mean i make the faces and if im alone ill act out scenarios but i know it is'nt real. - after finding out about DID though i think my MD took a turn for the worse, i gave my characters, real space in my head and it felt like i was talking to someone else directly, i've since knocked that on the head, but I didn't half scare myslf for a while there ... yaay lovely brain stuff, sorry for the massive brain dump, im so glad a place like this exists x
Your story is very relatable. Welcome to the forum, hope you are doing well.
