Post by sailor on Aug 28, 2020 8:59:25 GMT
How's it going?
I'm Sailor and I talk to people who aren't there. I've always called the people in my head characters. I'm very new to this sharing-our-daydreams thing, so I don't know most of the lingo for this daydreaming thing. As long as I could remember I've had daydreams of me being somebody else. I've always kept the same characters, but overtime they tended to evolve and become more in-depth, more alive, and more constant in my life.
I've struggled a lot mentally growing up. My parents weren't the most understanding parents out there but they tried their best.
My parents were accidentally very oppressive in my personal growth, I often felt like they had taken away my autonomy. My mom homeschooled me the entire way through high school and I struggled immensely, I barely made it through. On top of that my only social setting was church. Now, ever since I could remember, I've hated going to church. I was not allowed to hang out with the boys, but because I couldn't relate to the girls, I found myself alone with no friends the entirety of my childhood. I always found myself by my parents' side asking to go home, because there was nothing for me there.
I come to be 17, I got myself a job and delved into workaholism to cope with my unstable mentality. This is around the time I was diagnosed with a plethora of disorders: depression, social anxiety, insomnia, panic attacks, eating disorders, and selective mutism. By this time, I still don't have friends. My days were spent alone. This is when it became extremely obvious to me that my phantasies was a coping mechanism.
I'm now 20, I'm much more stable mentally then ever before. I have friends, but I don't exactly know how to deal with them so I tend to become avoidant. It's a bit overwhelming having friends. I realized recently that so long as I have emotions, whether it be
or happy, I will have my characters to cope. My family has never been the most open with emotions, so it's nice to put it on someone who knows how to do that. I'm basically a vessel for them to live in, as I maintain my life as a sailor maintains his ship for occupancy. Hope this didn't bore you!
-Franz Kafka
I'm Sailor and I talk to people who aren't there. I've always called the people in my head characters. I'm very new to this sharing-our-daydreams thing, so I don't know most of the lingo for this daydreaming thing. As long as I could remember I've had daydreams of me being somebody else. I've always kept the same characters, but overtime they tended to evolve and become more in-depth, more alive, and more constant in my life.
I've struggled a lot mentally growing up. My parents weren't the most understanding parents out there but they tried their best.
My parents were accidentally very oppressive in my personal growth, I often felt like they had taken away my autonomy. My mom homeschooled me the entire way through high school and I struggled immensely, I barely made it through. On top of that my only social setting was church. Now, ever since I could remember, I've hated going to church. I was not allowed to hang out with the boys, but because I couldn't relate to the girls, I found myself alone with no friends the entirety of my childhood. I always found myself by my parents' side asking to go home, because there was nothing for me there.
I come to be 17, I got myself a job and delved into workaholism to cope with my unstable mentality. This is around the time I was diagnosed with a plethora of disorders: depression, social anxiety, insomnia, panic attacks, eating disorders, and selective mutism. By this time, I still don't have friends. My days were spent alone. This is when it became extremely obvious to me that my phantasies was a coping mechanism.
I'm now 20, I'm much more stable mentally then ever before. I have friends, but I don't exactly know how to deal with them so I tend to become avoidant. It's a bit overwhelming having friends. I realized recently that so long as I have emotions, whether it be
or happy, I will have my characters to cope. My family has never been the most open with emotions, so it's nice to put it on someone who knows how to do that. I'm basically a vessel for them to live in, as I maintain my life as a sailor maintains his ship for occupancy. Hope this didn't bore you!You can hold yourself back from the sufferings of the world, this is something you are free to do and is in accord with your nature, but perhaps precisely this holding back is the only suffering that you might be able to avoid.
