I am in my mid twenties now and have only just discovered there is a name and diagnosis for what I have gone through my whole life.
Since as young as I can remember I obsessively daydreamed to a point where my family were worried about me, whilst daydreaming I would perform repetitive actions (walking wall to wall usually) and could be lost in it for hours. As a child this didn’t bother me too much, I really enjoyed it actually. But as I got older I felt more embarrassed about this and found with age and puberty my daydreaming tended to revolve more around ‘crushes’ usually celebrities. When I got a boyfriend in real life this died down and almost stopped then during my final year of school and during my A levels I became so obsessive in my daydreaming over a particular celebrity it completely stopped me being able to revise for my final exams, I literally couldn’t stop my compulsion to pace wall to wall and continue my elaborate daydream, this could have really hindered my whole life as I was so unprepared for exams it was ridiculous. Thankfully I scraped through and got into my uni. Since uni it seems to happen in waves, I’ll be fine and living my normal life then bam out of the blue I’ll fall completely infactuated with some random celebrity and it will take over my whole life for a month or so. It’s ruined holidays before for me, affected my relationship. It scares me, I don’t like feeling so obsessive, it feels creepy to feel so in love with the idea of someone and create a whole imaginative world around them. When it happens it’s completely intoxicating and takes over everything. I’ve called in sick to work before to stay at home in my Md world. Thankfully it’s becoming rarer, but it’s just started to happen again today, I’ve spent two hours lost in my head and decided enough was enough and I took to researching it which is where I found the diagnosis of maladaptive daydreaming and thank god I am so relieved I’m close to tears that it’s not just me. What can I do to stop this?? I enjoy it but I’m so aware of how obsessive I am and how sucked in I get and it’s incredibly unhealthy.