Post by personininternet on Oct 26, 2020 15:21:47 GMT
*note- i did warn you, if you were one of the more unlucky people who had MD because of trauma, please don't help me. i worry that the said people would look down on me as an "ungratful weakling"
after leaving this site and trying to find the cause of my MD, i think i might be close after asking parents about my past many times.. the reason why I didn't know the cause of MD was that my first memory consisted of me (severely, in terms of diagonistic intensity, apparently without trauma) listening to music. I didn't know what happened before, that was just my first remembered memory. thankfully my parents remembered what happened when I was 2, and it resulted in info-gathering (i said thanks after each questioning, if you wanted to know)..
i didn't have a traumatic childhood, but what I had was a unique cause not even this link
basically while i did have a relatively normal childhood with adequate physical needs supplied, my caretakers, the people i spent most of my time with, didn't know how to respond in English- my main language (they did understand it, but they couldn't talk to me in English) Any efforts talking to them with any other sentence that wasn't basic needs (ex. i'm hungry,) would be futile (ex. How are you today?), and they would respond rudely (whatever) according to me. if i did have a tantrum it would just escalate to me throwing things at them because they reprimanded me in their language, which I didn't understand, and i just replied accordingly "im going to stay in the bathtub"
Oh, and no one here is going to look down on you for your experience. We're all pretty messed up, and we all know what it's like to have others invalidate their experiences because "it wasn't that bad." This is a safe space :^).