hi i’m new to the forum and i just wanted to make clear that i haven’t been clinically diagnosed with MD but lately i’ve been excessively daydream and it’s been affecting my daily life so i made some research and found this forum.
i kinda just want to tell someone because i feel like i can’t tell anyone how i’m feeling because they wouldn’t understand. So, a few months ago i was studying abroad but because of corona i had to move back to my home country and i didn’t take it very well. That’s when I started daydreaming about being somewhere else and with my friends. It started as “oh i wish my friends were here with me, they would have liked this” or “i wish i was still there with them” but then i started imagining whole conversations and situations that could have happened and it got progressively worse and worse. it’s been 9 months and i still haven’t been able to go back and the daydreaming has got worse.
I’m 3 weeks behind with my uni work and i can’t focus for longer than one hour without feeling the need to daydream about a situation or a conversation. I can daydream for 3 hours straight and it’s just really hard to stop and make myself do uni work or other things because the reality i’m in is not really where i want to be. The feeling that i wish i was somewhere else never goes away and i’m just all the time. It’s like i never feel completely satisfied or happy with reality and i feel the need to escape it and daydream about how i wish things were. Sometimes it’s not even that, i just make up scenarios that make no sense and could never actually happen in real life and even get emotional about it even though i know that that’s not reality.
Sometimes i’m out with friends and i think about how i can’t wait to go back home and daydream about being back to the other country with my friends from there. Ever since i moved back, not a day has gone by without me daydreaming about being somewhere else with different people and i feel like i’m not living my life in the moment and i’m never really 100% present but i can’t stop daydreaming about things that are never gonna happen.
I totally understand how you feel but again it's only you who can try to control it. How I controlled it I tried to break the daily pattern for few days I let my urge grow trying to keep myself busy by sketching and instead of listening to music I changed to listening to audiobooks.meditation does help but to control yourself not clear your mind. You have to seek your own break point where you can control it.