Post by cstflm on Nov 25, 2020 21:20:31 GMT
Hi everyone!
My name is Cassidy. I'm 19.
I suffer from really bad anxiety, which could be related to my daydreaming obsession but who knows. When I was younger, I loved long car rides because I could sit in the backseat, blare music into my ears, and get lost in daydreams. I would daydream about anything and everything, but I remember a lot of it would be me placing myself in as the main character in shows I watched. I would get so attached to the characters in the shows I watched and so immersed in the life I saw them live that I dreamt day and day out about being a part of it. And when the car ride would end, it would feel like the world around me dimmed and all I could do was wait until I had another chance to drift off into my thoughts on the way home from wherever I was.
Before I would go to bed, for years, I would make time to lie awake and daydream about this life for myself I had made up in my head. It would change a lot, but it always felt so close yet so far. I think it stopped for a little while, maybe two years, but recently my daydreams have come back full force.
I constantly want to escape in my daydreams. I go on walks for 2-3 hours to procrastinate any of my responsibilities and to escape. The whole time I'll be daydreaming. And when I get home, and I stop, I feel
. I feel out of touch. I feel out of place. I've become madly obsessed with anime and the characters in them, and when I finish the show, I cry. And then I daydream about it for weeks. When I'm at work shelving things, I imagine the characters will show up. I imagine going out with them after work. I imagine conversations I'm having with them as if they're there.
I go to bed really late because I don't want to stop daydreaming. I feel trapped, but daydreaming helps me feel free, until I have no choice but to face the reality that it's not real. Then I feel worse. If I spoke to any of my friends about this, they would think I'm crazy even if they might not say it. I don't know what's wrong or what I could do to fix whatever I'm unhappy with in my life since I have no idea what it is or why I'm feeling like this. I'm stuck.
That being said, I would really love to meet people who understand. And just to make new friends, because maybe that's what I need. New friends, different friends. I want you all to know that I'm here not only for myself but for you guys- so please don't hesitate to reach out!! I'd love a chance to get to know you all and your stories.
Thanks for taking the time to read this and to get to know me a little better
Take care!
My name is Cassidy. I'm 19.
I suffer from really bad anxiety, which could be related to my daydreaming obsession but who knows. When I was younger, I loved long car rides because I could sit in the backseat, blare music into my ears, and get lost in daydreams. I would daydream about anything and everything, but I remember a lot of it would be me placing myself in as the main character in shows I watched. I would get so attached to the characters in the shows I watched and so immersed in the life I saw them live that I dreamt day and day out about being a part of it. And when the car ride would end, it would feel like the world around me dimmed and all I could do was wait until I had another chance to drift off into my thoughts on the way home from wherever I was.
Before I would go to bed, for years, I would make time to lie awake and daydream about this life for myself I had made up in my head. It would change a lot, but it always felt so close yet so far. I think it stopped for a little while, maybe two years, but recently my daydreams have come back full force.
I constantly want to escape in my daydreams. I go on walks for 2-3 hours to procrastinate any of my responsibilities and to escape. The whole time I'll be daydreaming. And when I get home, and I stop, I feel
. I feel out of touch. I feel out of place. I've become madly obsessed with anime and the characters in them, and when I finish the show, I cry. And then I daydream about it for weeks. When I'm at work shelving things, I imagine the characters will show up. I imagine going out with them after work. I imagine conversations I'm having with them as if they're there. I go to bed really late because I don't want to stop daydreaming. I feel trapped, but daydreaming helps me feel free, until I have no choice but to face the reality that it's not real. Then I feel worse. If I spoke to any of my friends about this, they would think I'm crazy even if they might not say it. I don't know what's wrong or what I could do to fix whatever I'm unhappy with in my life since I have no idea what it is or why I'm feeling like this. I'm stuck.
That being said, I would really love to meet people who understand. And just to make new friends, because maybe that's what I need. New friends, different friends. I want you all to know that I'm here not only for myself but for you guys- so please don't hesitate to reach out!! I'd love a chance to get to know you all and your stories.
Thanks for taking the time to read this and to get to know me a little better
Take care!