Since I was 12, I’ve daydreamed about being a famous singer or actress. I self insert myself into my daydreams and get material for my daydreams from media like movies, shows and news. However, I also daydream negative things that I see as well like if I see a shooting, I’ll daydream about being heroically killed in a shooting and about how people would react. When I watched the Martian, I daydreamed that I was severely injured on the Mars mission and I died on our way back and I daydreamed about the captain tearfully saying goodbye and floating my body into space . I think I just like the tragedy of the things because it’s not really from my perspective it’s more like a movie. I also think it was just my way of getting attention I didn’t get from those around me by getting it in my daydreams but like o hate that bc one of my plots was me in an abusive relationship so I feel really guilty about it. I’m now 14 and have recently stopped but like it’s making me depressed because I feel like a bad person for spending the past two years of my life daydreaming plots that included bad s*** when I was literally meant to be a child. Does anyone else do this?
Yes I do this. Most of my daydreams I’ve been kidnapped and somehow I’m rescued or I escape and I have all this attention on me it could be do to the shows I watch. other one would be me being famous or having a ton of money just living a very different lifestyle than what is reality. Just be happy you found out what this was was at such a young age. I’m 27 and had no idea
I found out when I was 27 too I dream sometimes that I am getting shot, or beat up and tortured. I sometimes do research on how long for example do you have to recover from broken ribs to adjust my dreams... Wonder where it is coming from.
I do this too. I have spent hours looking up the different types of cancer and other terminal diseases. These days I was daydreaming that I was a famous singer and dancer that had leukemia and didn't tell anyone, not even friends and family (or what was left of it at least, in this paracosm my family had died when I was young). I passed out right after a performance at Coachella and had to be taken to the hospital by helicopter (it landed in the middle of the festival), but I there wasn't anything anyone could do. After I died, I got a big public funeral with many famous and important people at it. The aesthetics of it is heavily based in documentary of Ayrton Senna (brazilian F1 driver that died in a crash), as a matter of fact I play the soundtrack of the documentary when I'm daydreaming about this.
Post by beautifuldreamer on Feb 10, 2021 21:50:56 GMT
I do this too. I sometimes torture my characters, and then feel awful about it and wonder what is wrong with me. But the thing I've figured out is that it is not the torture part that I like. It is what comes after. At the end, my poor, long suffering character receives comfort. They are gently bandaged, held, their hair is stroked, they are told that they are safe and loved by someone close to them. That is the part I like, but unfortunately, it is necessary for my characters to suffer before getting to that point. It's a classic hurt/comfort scenario.
The truth is, in real life, I can't stand seeing people in pain. Even in movies where it is fake, if a character is being tortured it makes me sick and I have to leave the room. This reassures me that I'm not a psychopath or something. It is only in my own head that physical/emotional pain doesn't bother me, and it is only because I can then provide consolation.
I have wondered if maybe this is a projection of my own hidden suffering and desire for understanding. I want to feel like someone cares and would be if I was hurt. Also, it could be that common triggers, such as movies and books, require that to be conflict. Since our day dreams are our own made up stories, it makes sense that there would be conflict and struggle in them too. They wouldn't be good stories if there wasn't.
Post by lapetiteprincesse on Feb 19, 2021 15:09:54 GMT
before I took these new pills I'm taking, my dreams mostly had a gloomy theme. even if they were a happy dream the theme was and dark and made the observer . I mean, not all of them had bad happenings in them but when I woke up I felt so .