So, i dont exactly know whether i have md or not, and i decided to come here to see if i relate to people who have this problem. The way i usually daydream is not always a specific universe that i created. Ofc i have that too but i usually spare some time if i want to dream about them. Usually, there is a very loud voice in my head. I talk to myself, give speeches to myself like somebody is talking to me. If it turns out to be too deep of a conversation, i usually go with a character of mine having a one way conversation with another character. When i lose sleep, its either this conversation that repeats itself, or completely random stuff.
Like, a machine that makes donuts. or me slapping some ketchup. or a tree being cut down. sometimes these random stuff turns into me these things loudly in my head and than realizing and telling myself "what are you about go back to sleep"
I also just realized it recently, i am mimicking whatever im about. Sometimes my muscles are twitching and i do subtle movements. I hope nobody realized that :,) If im really deep into , i immediattely forget what somebody told me or what i was supposed to do so when i snap out of it, i usually find myself wandering around.
i have a couple of stories that are in my mind right now (none of them i actually wrote down) and i almost always think about the first one because its the most inclusive one.
So there are around 80- maybe even more characters in that story. All of them are from different backgrounds, ethinicites, religions etc. and most of them re 16-18 year old people. So usually its pretty easy for me to adapt a lot of real life situations or stories ive read/heard/watched to these characters. The most important out of all is Michael for me- he is a 38 year old man. In order for you to understand Michael better you need a lil bit of a context for what my story is so forget that part and just know that he is the one usually explaining or doing stuff with these kids. Almost all of my characters in this story are connected to him.
(and yes, i cant read or watch shows without other people because i find myself getting inspired and daydreaming instead. music also always triggers it.)
I actually geniunely feel like if i can someday make this into a comic book, it will help a lot of people just like it did to me. I found a lot of comfort in these characters. I guess that is why i don't really feel bothered by it, but since quarantine my grades started to drop by a lot and i found myself not being able to control my time whatsoever. Ig thats it, this might be too long but my mind is a garbage dump nowadays it cant cut anything short
Last Edit: Feb 15, 2021 5:36:47 GMT by popocuk: thinking and lmao is turning into emojis and idk how to stop it :,)
Maladaptive daydreaming is, in its most basic definition, daydreaming that interferes with your ability to function in real life. Often, this means trouble completing work for school or a job or maintaining healthy interpersonal relationships.
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