! My name is Abigail and I'm 13. I've just fully accepted that I have a problem with daydreaming. I have done it for years, commonly making excuses to get out of things so I can go to my room and daydream. My daydreams get so intense that I will laugh, talk, and even cry so my real life actions line up with those in my fantasies. I have told my mom time and time again that my real life feels empty, and then I get frustrated when she doesn't know how to help. I've never told anyone that I daydream so much (my mom caught me talking to myself once, really embarrassing). I change interests all the time and whatever I'm obsessed with, currently SKZ, becomes the focus of my fantasies. The thought of fully living in real life is so scary to me. I feel as though I can't live in a real world without the fictional support of friends I have created. I need help so badly, but I'm terrified to talk to my mom or a professional. MD isn't an actual diagnosis. I went to inpatient last year and I have pretended to get better. My mom is terrible with emotions (I still absolutely love her though), and I'm not close with my dad. I'm near tears while writing this, the thought that I might have support and truly understanding how poorly I have been doing is overwhelming. My life has been ruined by MD. If anyone knows how I can begin to feel a even a little bit better, please please reach out. If anyone reading this is in the same place I am, we can fight this together. I love you.
(EDIT: i'm here from about a month later and it hasn't gotten any better. I'm so scared that I will never be normal or whole again. I need help, but since MD isn't considered an actual disorder, I have no idea where to get it.)
Post by lorialthefirst on Jul 6, 2021 23:47:24 GMT
You’re not alone. My Mom has caught me cracking up by myself. Though in my head I was laughing with my “siblings.” Well, my day dream characters siblings. I’ve burst into tears because my character was crying. I don’t want to say I know exactly how you feel, but I think I can get a pretty good idea. I only recently have dealt with, or begun to deal with, my day dreaming and the whole it’s left in my social life. If you ever need to talk just message me. I’d be happy to help in any way I can!
Know you’re not alone in this. It can be very lonely because so few people know what MD is, let alone what to do about it, but you’re not alone. If your real life feels very empty, you might consider trying therapy, as that could be caused by depression. MD is frequently a coping mechanism to help deal with unpleasant things like depression or loneliness. Because of this, while not many people would know what to do to treat MD, if they treat the underlying cause, there’s a good chance your MD will get better too.
Don't give up what you want most for what you want now.
Hi Abigail, I'm so sorry you feel this way and I want to tell you that you really aren't alone. I understand how distressing and difficult living with MD can be. I have seasonal depression and so when I was down, I would feel really upset about the thought that all my daydreams weren't real and I would never actually be able to live the life I wanted in my fantasy world. I also felt the real world was pointless and I didn't want to stay in it if it meant i had to live without the people in my fictional world. i don't know if this helps to hear, i just wanted you to know that you're not the only one to feel this way. I wanna help anyway I can even if that means just sharing experiences?