Post by tg98 on Jul 7, 2021 14:05:58 GMT
I've suspected I daydream as a coping method for about 7 years now. At certain times of my life it has almost went away (when I've been much busier and had a full social life). I've never spoken to anyone because I find it so embarrassing, but I'm wondering if for anyone else it's triggered by already-existing fictional universes? I tend not to daydream about my own life at all, it's really media that I'm into that has me itching to do it. I would describe it as almost an addiction like daydreaming is this peaceful escape and I get to do/be things I can't do in my real life. I have trauma in my past and mental illnesses which probably contribute.
My MD expresses itself by my mind imagining me as part of movies or television shows. The storylines are ongoing and often feature "scenes" that u can sometimes find very stressful as if I don't play them out right in my head I need to restart it and do it right - almost like how a director would do another take if an actor fucks up.
I remember this starting back when I was a teen, using TV to escape a very depressed reality. It doesn't cause me much harm these days but I have to admit that it goes too far with me, because sometimes I feel the need to do it for a long time or I get irritated if it doesn't play in my mind in the exact way I wanted. Sometimes I'll physically act out little parts in the mirror. It's almost like a dopamine hit, I miss it when I don't do it but I want to stop MD because I don't think it's helpful.
I'm going to the cinema today to see a movie I've been
for and already know the characters and I know my mind will begin to wander and place me in it during the film instead of just enjoying it... All of this makes me feel insane! It happens anytime I really enjoy a piece of media and feel attached to the characters. I love filmmaking so I used to think it was just me being a little actor-y and doing plays in my room but into adulthood I recognise it as something that's escapism and not normal.
Most annoying thing? If it triggers when I'm watching something at home I will pause every 5 mins to MD cause I feel the need to insert myself into it for the emotional stimulation,
My MD expresses itself by my mind imagining me as part of movies or television shows. The storylines are ongoing and often feature "scenes" that u can sometimes find very stressful as if I don't play them out right in my head I need to restart it and do it right - almost like how a director would do another take if an actor fucks up.
I remember this starting back when I was a teen, using TV to escape a very depressed reality. It doesn't cause me much harm these days but I have to admit that it goes too far with me, because sometimes I feel the need to do it for a long time or I get irritated if it doesn't play in my mind in the exact way I wanted. Sometimes I'll physically act out little parts in the mirror. It's almost like a dopamine hit, I miss it when I don't do it but I want to stop MD because I don't think it's helpful.
I'm going to the cinema today to see a movie I've been
for and already know the characters and I know my mind will begin to wander and place me in it during the film instead of just enjoying it... All of this makes me feel insane! It happens anytime I really enjoy a piece of media and feel attached to the characters. I love filmmaking so I used to think it was just me being a little actor-y and doing plays in my room but into adulthood I recognise it as something that's escapism and not normal. Most annoying thing? If it triggers when I'm watching something at home I will pause every 5 mins to MD cause I feel the need to insert myself into it for the emotional stimulation,
