TW: Murder I'm 19 years old and I would like to get some therapy but I don't know how to go about it all, or where to start. I have had homicide therapy/counselling before when I was 14 as the people around me thought that, that was the best one for me at that time (my dad murdered my mum, I did not witness it though) but it really wasn't so the counsellor set me up with a different counsellor for depression however I didn't really like her, I felt like I was being treated like a child by her and didn't feel like it was helping me at all. I now have a better understanding of what's wrong with me/effecting me since finding out about MD and seeing how much of my life is being effected and/or ruined by it and it's becoming unbearable. I do suffer from social anxiety and I believe I still do have depression but not as bad as it was when I was 14/15, and I would like to get treatment for them as well, however it's my MD that seems to be the main issue as it fuels all the others. I don't know what type of therapy to get, and I'm worried that if I picked the wrong one then they're either gonna brush over my MD and try and focus on something else like with the homicide therapist or it's just not gonna be helpful to me and I will be stuck back at square one feeling like I'm drowning, and not knowing what to do with my life.
CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) seems to be a fairly common and effective therapy for most issues. Personally, I find the “changing negative thoughts” part of CBT to be unhelpful, so I prefer ACT (acceptance and commitment therapy), or a combination of the two. It really just depends on you, though. There’s plenty of resources out there that explain different types of therapy (CBT, ACT, DBT, EMDR, and ERP are the ones that come to mind and they all have different methodologies and work best for different issues), so you might want to do some research to find which one sounds best for you and find a therapist that specifically uses that type of therapy. If you’re in the US, this website is good for finding therapists in your area and it usually lists what they treat and how they treat it www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists
I will warn you that most therapists won’t know what MD is and likely won’t know how to treat it. Generally, giving them resources about MD (the ICMDR and Dr. Somer’s stuff mainly) can be helpful in getting them to understand, as is framing MD as a behavioral addiction similar to gambling or shopping. Their acceptance and willingness to consider MD to be a real problem really just varies from therapist to therapist though, so you might have to go to a few before you find one that works. Or you’ll have to settle for simply dealing with your other mental health issues and hoping that that helps with MD as well (it should, at least to some degree).
Don't give up what you want most for what you want now.