I'm scared

I m not in a financially stable right now but I m a student and can't earn for now although there seems to be ways to get through this, I m still scared. If that person didn't cheat us, we would not be in this place right now so I m scared that others will do it too and we will end up in even worse spot. I just want to complete my college so I could start earning and become more financially stable but I m having trouble paying the fees so I m scared I might not be able to finish my college. We just have to go through this year and we will be more stable but I m scared. I m sorry to say this here but I just want to vent somewhere. Maybe I will get through or maybe I won't. Thanks to the lockdown our situation did not get worse but my college is about to start and lockdown is about to end I really hope I could get through no matter matter ho hard it is. Every thing that happened in the past two years made me realize that not all people support me when I m at my worst including my so called family (relatives). When things got hard, I don't mind that they did not help but they tried to push us down even further. They were so close that I didn't even realize what type of people they are. They don't have to help at least just asking if we were ok would have been enough but they did not and worse tried to hit us when we were down. I jealous of others who have tight knit family, I just hope we get through this and be better than any of them just to see their face when they realize how much we could achieve and grow. I want to make them regret ever hurting us, I wont hurt them back, I will just make sure that they are there to watch when I am at my best.