Post by joel on Sept 28, 2021 21:19:45 GMT
hello i just finally discovered the cause of that feeling that have the use to make me feel so mad and angry and 
and all those emotions because of the time lost , i started maladaptive daydream during lockdown i think when my only contact with the world was internet i started making up scenarios in my head with music and just get very hyperactive on it and dance ?? and at first i thought it was just normal dancing but with time it got worse and worse and i started getting so about it the time that i lost , after the summer of lockdown where i had to meet friends agaiin etc i had a very very bad burnout because of my asperger syndrome and untreated ADHD and that caused me into a hard depression during a whole year i seeked therapy but then the medication just made it worse so i started maladaptive daydreaming as a coping mechanism and then it started to get bad , i started also homeschooling at this year (now im in my second year of homeschool) (not due to COVID) so i was very more lonely than before cause i also cut all my relation with my friends at that moment and it messed up my head a lot BUT I NEED TO STOP doing it cause i loose so much time to work and energy , i used to draw and paint every day , i need to be me again , im gonna try to seek a therapist that will not actually diagnose me with schizophrenia and start doing some sports again to try to get to real life....
And PLEASE if anybody can give me some tips i would be thankful about it ;
and a special thanks to anybody that created that forum , i dont feel that lonesome about it and feel like i can speak about it without feeling that shame of creating up things in my head for no reasons <33
and all those emotions because of the time lost , i started maladaptive daydream during lockdown i think when my only contact with the world was internet i started making up scenarios in my head with music and just get very hyperactive on it and dance ?? and at first i thought it was just normal dancing but with time it got worse and worse and i started getting so about it the time that i lost , after the summer of lockdown where i had to meet friends agaiin etc i had a very very bad burnout because of my asperger syndrome and untreated ADHD and that caused me into a hard depression during a whole year i seeked therapy but then the medication just made it worse so i started maladaptive daydreaming as a coping mechanism and then it started to get bad , i started also homeschooling at this year (now im in my second year of homeschool) (not due to COVID) so i was very more lonely than before cause i also cut all my relation with my friends at that moment and it messed up my head a lot BUT I NEED TO STOP doing it cause i loose so much time to work and energy , i used to draw and paint every day , i need to be me again , im gonna try to seek a therapist that will not actually diagnose me with schizophrenia and start doing some sports again to try to get to real life....And PLEASE if anybody can give me some tips i would be thankful about it ;
and a special thanks to anybody that created that forum , i dont feel that lonesome about it and feel like i can speak about it without feeling that shame of creating up things in my head for no reasons <33
