Post by densi on Nov 27, 2021 13:22:59 GMT
I just recently gained my awareness about my, already for some years ongoing, habit of daydreaming, especially its deep impact on my everyday life.
A few facts about me, before I start introducing you to my recorvery-world, I am a 27 y/o university student working 30h/week, I'm going to marry the love of my life in febuary & I have a neurological disease causing optical distortions and headaches especially when I'm heavily pressured & stressed.
Let's get started:
Due to my parents divoce (age 3) & some quite impactful bullying through my time in school I found my save haven in video games and anime. Ever so often, when I had troubles sleeping, I started
myself into various scenarious of my favorite anime & games. I created fanarts & fanfiction about that & I pretty enjoyed what I did. But the more promblems in daily life arose, the more time my reality escapes consumed. And they peaked about 3 years ago. It was quite severe, I also voluntarily napped several hours a day just to be able to daydream more properly. My interaction with the real world became quite non-active & I didn't even notice it until a few weeks ago, even though the daydreaming decreased noticably (I almost didn't daydream since for a year until August 2021, when I had a mental breakdown).
Since a week or two these urges to daydream returned, they're still at a non-interfering level with my real life, but the tendency is high, that they could make me reach a certain numbness again.
I've never talked about my daydreaming addiction to anybody, my fiancé does know about i though, but he isn't that mentally ruined as I am, therefore has a hard time understanding these escapes.
If you have any questions, suggestions or just want to chat about maladaptive daydreaming in general, I'd be quite happy about it.
Thanks for reading this mess of a summary & have a good one!
A few facts about me, before I start introducing you to my recorvery-world, I am a 27 y/o university student working 30h/week, I'm going to marry the love of my life in febuary & I have a neurological disease causing optical distortions and headaches especially when I'm heavily pressured & stressed.
Let's get started:
Due to my parents divoce (age 3) & some quite impactful bullying through my time in school I found my save haven in video games and anime. Ever so often, when I had troubles sleeping, I started
myself into various scenarious of my favorite anime & games. I created fanarts & fanfiction about that & I pretty enjoyed what I did. But the more promblems in daily life arose, the more time my reality escapes consumed. And they peaked about 3 years ago. It was quite severe, I also voluntarily napped several hours a day just to be able to daydream more properly. My interaction with the real world became quite non-active & I didn't even notice it until a few weeks ago, even though the daydreaming decreased noticably (I almost didn't daydream since for a year until August 2021, when I had a mental breakdown).Since a week or two these urges to daydream returned, they're still at a non-interfering level with my real life, but the tendency is high, that they could make me reach a certain numbness again.
I've never talked about my daydreaming addiction to anybody, my fiancé does know about i though, but he isn't that mentally ruined as I am, therefore has a hard time understanding these escapes.
If you have any questions, suggestions or just want to chat about maladaptive daydreaming in general, I'd be quite happy about it.
Thanks for reading this mess of a summary & have a good one!
