TOLD MY MOM AND I QUESTION WHETHER I HAVE MADD OR NOT
So, I just had a bad mood swing, almost a fight with my dad and got very emotional and just told my mom I have a problem called maladaptive daydreaming. I tried telling her what it means, though I think it was harder for her to realize what I was talking about- she is a very driven person; to her, any problem has every possible solution over which one could glide over or knock off- she has been living a very persistent life. so, i really understand that when I say I get triggered by music to daydream, her gentle answer is you can try controlling it by doing this and this, which by the way, started making perfect sense to me as well. It totally made me question whether this problem is real or is it just impossible to overcome or is it that I just don't have it. Cause after talking to her I read articles by Somer and felt I never had a traumatic incidence in life to incite anything. This encounter overall just makes me question whether I was just procrastinating and disguising it as a problem (this btw is very characteristic of many elders in my home and I might have picked it up to gain attention; I seriously don't know anymore)
My mom though, knowing this was the route cause of all of my problems took me to a psychiatrist. So, I told him these things- I have been daydreaming for like 5-8 hrs a day for 5 years. I used to daydream as a kid for like 10-15 min but it escalated during my high school years due to an abrupt shift in grades. It took me like 6-8 months digressing I am wasting time on daydreaming and that there are people on the internet who let me know it is an existent problem (P.S. I NEVER MENTIONED THE TERM "MALADAPTIVE", I didn't want to come off as a self-diagnosing person or wanted to be negative about the whole consultation if the doctor would have straight up rejected existence of something like that). Then, I told him times when I tried decreasing it or just straight up going cold turkey with it, about the triggering factors, about how being lonely kinda just automatically starts this engine and how I failed a semester and dropped the last one due to covid isolation escalating my problem.
WHAT HE SAID
He diagnosed me with OCD- gave me a low power med. Told me I currently have no control over daydreaming, it is a very unconscious thing and I literally go flight mode with it- just the means is daydreaming. I just told myself to be positive about this entire situation.
IS ANYONE HERE WITH OCD- WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS
I took the prescription and for some reason (maybe it's because I know I took the pill) I feel so weirdly light headed. Everything almost feels like a movie and I am just a bystander. The weird thing- I tried daydreaming (although I should have tried suppressing it) and I just felt this mental barrier continuously making it harder for me to take the cue and run the story- I weirdly feel so disconnected with it and just really emotionless on the note. AGAIN STATING, I MIGHT BE MAKING THIS UP IN HEAD THAT IT IS ACTUALLY HAPPENING DUE TO THE PILL. Still, had anybody felt this really happening- people with OCD after taking their first prescription.
IN ALL WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS? Do you guys really think this can be diagnosed as OCD? I didn't really talk about any other things as symptoms of mine- I don't have any except my stress eating thing (I just forgot to tell them). I wanted to ask what I can ask or do the next time- should I make my thoughts about this situation clear- what things I runoff while daydreaming, emotional feelings I feel while daydreaming and how it simply helps feed my attention and self-pity craving aspects.
Hello! As someone who has OCD, I may be able to help you. OCD is characterized mainly by intrusive thoughts that often request compulsions to regain a sense of control. Some people put MD in that category however, for something to be considered intrusive it has to bother you, daydreams, although distractive, often bring you pleasure. MD is more of a coping mechanism to OCD than the cause of it. I advise you to be cautious with meds. You are young and your brain is actively developing,and seeing that you are already getting negative side effects, please consider other options. A psych med,even if it's potency is low is still enough powerful to significally impact your brain chemistry. Now,don't get me wrong, I am not anti-meds but in cases where depression or anxiety are mild, I don't think that the benefits outweight side-effects. Not to mention the phenomenon of PSSD or SSRI induced anhedonia that are barely addressed ( just visit Surviving Antidepressants page) There are plenty of herbal and other supplements over the counter, NAC might help you. If you want to talk more, feel free to message me
Thanks Annie! I really wanted to hear from someone having this issue of OCD. I also wonder whether I have this or not. I really don't want to continue this therapy cause inherently I am a little negative with this idea itself that I have OCD or any other issue for that matter. Btw the pills are probably, as i thought, does not help or negate anything- I'm still daydreaming and riding my dopamine ride.
Hello I have severe OCD. From what Im read it sounds like you have MD not OCD. As stated above people with ocd do compulsions out of fear something bad will happen if they dont do them. We certainly dont get any enjoyment out of doing compulsions. Compulsions are annoying at the least and debilitating at the worst.However to someone who has MD daydreamings probably the most enjoyable thing in the world to them. Also alot of people with MD use music to help them daydream but people with ocd dont need music to do compulsions. Also with ocd you dont make up worlds characters and plot lines. Also please know you dont need a traumatic experience as a child to get MD its more like a ability you have that most other people dont have. Yes MD was discovered in child abuse patients when somer first named MD but since then many many people have come forward with MD with no child abuse. And also another symptom of MD is kinetic movement when daydreaming such as rocking pacing etc Thats another very common symptom as well as listening to music. It would probably be good to be cautious with the doctor. Its better to be misdiagnosed with OCD than scitzophrenia. Most doctors havnt heard of MD and its not in the diagnostic manual for diagnosing disorders yet. Thats why Somer and his fellow researches are working hard to study MD so it can be officially put in the manual of disorders that way people wont get misdiagnosed with other things.If the doctor dosnt know about MD you could ask him to read the peer reviewed research papers on MD.
OCD and MD can often go together but I feel that although MD can be obsessive it isn't the same as having OCD and as I doubt your therapist has heard of MD so wouldn't be able to diagnose it. Starting meds will often make you feel unwell or 'off' until you get use to them but I've not heard of any that successfully stop someone from daydreaming though.
I'm glad you've opened up to your parents though. As for not wanting to come off as a person who self-diagnoses whilst I get that sometimes a self diagnosis is valid and maybe printing out some professional papers on MD to show to the Dr or your parents will be beneficial in getting them to understand your problems.
Hi fellowmder, it's good that you talked to your parents about it. I do think that a part of MD can actually be OCD since many of us repeat our scenarios, tinkling with them making them perfect. I don't have a diagnosed OCD but i have a habit of picking at my scalp and yes everybody at home knows it. Apart from that people tell me that I tend to fixate on doing something or an idea. At times I have masturbated compulsively to the point it feels awful. Read up comorbidity of MD with OCD, it is actually very common. I think therapy and meds for OCD might help you, just stick to your treatment and don't worry about side effects of meds, yes they are there but you might just end up getting greatly benefitted. You might also show him the MD forum(s) and tell him that you are very much able to relate to the experiences of these people and they call their problem Maladaptive Daydreaming.
" I wanted to ask if high doses of meds in OCD can react to make you feel negative all day regardless of situation" Talk about this with your doctor on next appointment.
"There are plenty of herbal and other supplements over the counter, NAC might help you." I disagree with anniebanani on use of alternate medicine as they are unscientific and do nothing.
Man, i"ve have OCD and MD since i was child, like the others said OCD makes you feel really bad similar to anxiety, and MD makes you feel really nice, OCD can affect a lot of areas of your life and it can be confuse with others things, if you don't have others sintoms of OCD, you problably don't have it. But i do think that have OCD makes you vunerable to anxiety and MD