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Loss
Feb 22, 2022 14:22:55 GMT
Post by tumultus on Feb 22, 2022 14:22:55 GMT
Hi all, I've been MDing for about 15 yrs now, and because of the evolution of my characters, plotlines and so on I now have a very very deep connection to what I've created and I find it extremely enjoyable to MD.
For many years now i have thought about losing my MD and how my brain would process this loss. i imagine that, because i MD for the things i yearn for from my future, that if these things appear in real life, my MD will decrease (which i both want and don't want, it's weird). I remember as a young child i would try to find ways of expressing my MD, so that if i lost them, i would still be able to remember them. The idea of losing them completely, although i know from research that this is unlikely, is a distressing thought and i imagine it would almost be like losing a child, a part of yourself, and maybe i would have to go through a kind of grieving process to compensate for that loss.
I was wondering if anyone on here has dealt with the loss of their MD, even if only slightly, and whether you found this an emotionally difficult process or if it happened almost unconsciously.
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Lyla
New Daydreamer
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Loss
Feb 25, 2022 5:17:42 GMT
Post by Lyla on Feb 25, 2022 5:17:42 GMT
To answer your question I have to say that I personally haven't necessarily lost my MD to any extent (that I'm aware of) but I do really understand your fear and relate to it. There are things in reality that impede or interrupt my daydreams. Sometimes these things can dissuade me from doing it at all. For some that may be considered a blessing but I become very distressed when I can't daydream. Personally, my MD stems from loneliness and a deeply rooted fear of rejection so often times I feel my dream world can give me the validation I need when reality lets me down. However, I find that when I try to enter into a romantic relationship with someone in reality it is almost impossible for me to daydream as I did before. I end up mourning the story and perfect characters I'd created and... well let's just say I've been single for a very long time because of it.
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Loss
Apr 23, 2022 17:16:34 GMT
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Post by mary on Apr 23, 2022 17:16:34 GMT
From my experience as I stayed out of MD for about 3 years before doing it again, I didn't experience any loss. During that time I didn't feel the need to do it at all,so there was not any feeling of loss. I think because a lot of things were happening in my life during that time, changing an environment, socializing a lot, and I was always keeping busy.it only came back when tragic events happened and felt isolated. So I was pushing myself to go MD again to feel safe and escape from reality. But it didn't completely work because as much as I was pushing to daydream, I was feeling more depressed. I understand that MD is the most valuable for the person who experiences it as we are creating a world which feels safe and private, but personally I think that if you were able to reduce it and don't feel the need to do it, don't push it to come back. For me these 3 years that MD was absent, were the best time in my life as I was feeling present. Hope it helps..
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