I don't know if I should keep fighting. Its really hard to do it alone. I have to start over college from my 1st year due to personal reasons but If I hadn't had to start over I would have been in my final year now. I find it hard to be left behind and I m scared. I feel like I have to work harder than before but I m exhausted. It was really hard form me to cope with college the first time due to my MD but still I had 86% but now all my work is in the drain. I don't know who to talk to about this too. I m pretty sure that I can't talk to my family as they won't understand and would also mock me for being weak. I m lost. I just don't know what I want to do any more. I hate everything. I just wanna disappear. I was in really reputed college back then but now I m in some really low standard college that makes me even more depressed. Every one said that where you study doesn't matter but I don't think its true as I ve both types of colleges. My depression, anxiety, MD and ADHD has all peaked and I m overwhelmed. I just wanna bury myself somewhere and stay there hidden from the world. please help.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm in the exact same position you are with university, I've deferred my exams (again) because of not only MD but depression and anxiety. I'm a survivor of trauma and other things, and MD has been my escape for so long. I use characters from books/TV/games and create fantasies in my head involving them. The only thing I will say is that I approached my dad about all of this, and he surprised me and listened. You're not alone, and it's comforting to know that neither am I.