fairytale
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you are not a mistake
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Post by fairytale on Apr 26, 2022 13:01:18 GMT
I don't know if I should keep fighting. Its really hard to do it alone. I have to start over college from my 1st year due to personal reasons but If I hadn't had to start over I would have been in my final year now. I find it hard to be left behind and I m scared. I feel like I have to work harder than before but I m exhausted. It was really hard form me to cope with college the first time due to my MD but still I had 86% but now all my work is in the drain. I don't know who to talk to about this too. I m pretty sure that I can't talk to my family as they won't understand and would also mock me for being weak. I m lost. I just don't know what I want to do any more. I hate everything. I just wanna disappear. I was in really reputed college back then but now I m in some really low standard college that makes me even more depressed. Every one said that where you study doesn't matter but I don't think its true as I ve both types of colleges. My depression, anxiety, MD and ADHD has all peaked and I m overwhelmed. I just wanna bury myself somewhere and stay there hidden from the world. please help.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Post by coffee on Apr 27, 2022 15:46:07 GMT
I'm in the exact same position you are with university, I've deferred my exams (again) because of not only MD but depression and anxiety. I'm a survivor of trauma and other things, and MD has been my escape for so long. I use characters from books/TV/games and create fantasies in my head involving them. The only thing I will say is that I approached my dad about all of this, and he surprised me and listened. You're not alone, and it's comforting to know that neither am I.
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