I really don‘t know what to do anymore.. Like half a year ago I got it under control very well and only MD for a decent amount of time.
But I am at a very dark place right now and some days the only thing that makes me feel something is MD. I daydream for hours and it affects my life. I procrastinate my work, neglect my friendships, ignore it when I am sick or hurt, etc. A lot of days are just me pacing in my apartment and doing nothing apart from MD. It‘s very hard with depression and so on and I really don‘t know what to do anymore.
I feel so alone with this.
do you have any tips for me? I need to get control over my life again but I don‘t know where to start. It‘s a tough time for me. Therapy isn‘t an opportunity for me at the moment so don‘t suggest that please.
Maybe you should get yourself to do something that will ground you a bit more. I highly recommend making a commitment to yourself to write about something for ten minutes a day. Allow yourself to try and write literally anything, whether its about your mood, thoughts, or fiction. Excersising the brain this way I think will hopefully leave you more conscious of your thoughts afterwards and able to catch yourself daydreaming easier. Maybe also try and read a book for 10 minutes too, it might help improve sustained attention a bit. I literally came up with these goals for myself yesterday, and am gonna really try and see if it helps, I think it will a bit. I feel that they are small enough goals to not be too overwhelming. Also, make time for self care. Remind yourself to respect yourself. Maybe more baths, or try meditation and yoga if you don't do these already. Personally I have gotten really into crystals and listening to the didgeridoo. Howlite is a good stone for grounding yourself. Also I have been loving holding my amethyst and rose quartz together which promote self love and reduce anxiety. Also I very much recommend lighting incense! It is seriously amazing. I bought a yoga matt for 20 bucks and it has greatly improved my quality of life. I do my self care stuff on it all the time! Actively choosing to do other activities is one of the best ways to get out of the daydreaming loop and take control back in my experience. Oh yes! Tarot too! All the spiritual goods I have been getting into really help me connect with my better self. We all have better selves, we can just get lost and feel disconnected. Let's try and reconnect! I for one start my day every single day feeling extremely disconnected from myself and who I want to be, but writing, meditation, incense, crystals, and reading tarot have all been helping me recenter myself. I am now coming to terms with the fact that recentering myself has got to be a daily task. I am counting this as my writing for the day for sure. I hope you can take some more control back!