Post by lisal on Jun 23, 2022 17:38:29 GMT
I have my exam tomorrow and the whole day I did today was daydreaming. I am not able to focus at all. Sometimes I start doubting myself whether am I studying without any passion. In the classes I am totally 
to study the topics and all... But after coming to home... All I do is daydreaming. Some days I do study but that is when I am calm and not stressed. As the exams approach I start daydreaming more and start binge watching some series or novels and daydream more and more.
I am in one of the top colleges and in my college everyone studies really well and enjoy life at the same time. I am not able to balance studying and enjoyment...and the main reason is daydreaming. I do the same mistake again and again. After an exam I say..next time I am going to do really well. I know I have the potential to study well... Studying is not some talent.. if you really put in the efforts you will get the results.
I have so much in me that I want to explore and be my best. But I am not able to come out of this daydreaming condition. Everytime I make up my mind... I am just following it for maybe one or maximum two days and again fall back into the habit of daydreaming.
I feel really ashamed when all my friends who are the toppers in my class score really well and I am just there around them who doesn't get the good marks. I know I should not compare and all those stuffs. I don't usually but I do feel
sometimes. But it's okay, I am going to come back stronger this time. I am going to study really well and next time onwards I am going to take my mind into control. I don't want it to fall back into daydreaming.
I fell into the pit of reading these dark romance novels too....which gives me ideas for daydreaming or an alternative for daydreaming which really not doing gud for me. It's okay I didn't do well in these exams. Each time my marks comes... My parents are seeing my results. I am just passing and not more than that. I am feeling stressed with everything going around me. Enjoying, involving in college activities, dance, sports and studies.
I need to get back in control and do what I should be really doing. Improving myself, improving my relationships with everyone I love.
No one knows about my daydreaming and I said it to my sister and she doesn't understands it also. She just says it's a phase and it will go away. I hope it goes away but no this daydreaming has increased more and more. I used to daydream before...but not this much. Maybe it's the stress and new responsibilities people just assume you are an adult when you are just 20. When you are 15, they say, " It's okay you don't know this and that" and suddenly when you are 20, they expect me to know everything, they say "when will I learn about these small stuffs". (PS:- I don't know how many people relate to this)
I really want to start living my life. I don't want to stay in my mind. I just procastinate on and on and this happens everything. I am tired of this.
I am making sure this is my last breakdown due to daydreaming. I am going to be super positive from next time onwards. I am going to set myself some targets and fulfill them. Start meditation, writing journal and exercise. I will make sure I come to this website weekly...so that I will always know that I am not alone in this fight. I am going to struggle..and I know there are people struggling with this. There is no cure but you can reduce the effect how much ever you want. I am going do the same.
So these are my targets:-
1. Wake up early in the morning. Do yoga or exercise. Meditation. My morning journal entry - target lists for the day.
2. Start taking care of my body and my mind.
3. Informing my sister to give me a set of questions each weekend like a weekly test. And I am going to take them seriously and work hard for them. I am going to engage myself in improving myself and living every moment.
4. I should not get distracted by the college dramas and gossips. I am tired of them. I am tired of being involved in that and this. I just want to focus on myself now.
5. I am going to get bad marks this time and it's okay. No one knows what you are really going through.
6. I just beg you to not to give in to your minds craving.
7. I am going to write a night journal where I will observe the overall days progress...what I should have done and mistakes I did. In the end, I should find someone to be gratitude towards.
8. I am going to study in online study groups and these really helps me.
I have to start respecting myself and live my life. Because you just got one life and I am not going to waste it in my mind daydreaming instead of which I can start being myself and live my life. I hope I can do these and I am going to look into my progress for one month. I hope I can succeed... And let's just say there is no success in this one. Its all about improving myself. I shouldnt be disappointed if I give in...I should just get up everytime I fall back. I am already getting triggered to daydream but no I am not going to fall for the pit again and again. I am tired of MD. Okay fine
. Need to get back to study so I can pass tomorrow.
PS:- Please do ignore my grammatical mistake. Not in mood to correct them and no time either.
to study the topics and all... But after coming to home... All I do is daydreaming. Some days I do study but that is when I am calm and not stressed. As the exams approach I start daydreaming more and start binge watching some series or novels and daydream more and more. I am in one of the top colleges and in my college everyone studies really well and enjoy life at the same time. I am not able to balance studying and enjoyment...and the main reason is daydreaming. I do the same mistake again and again. After an exam I say..next time I am going to do really well. I know I have the potential to study well... Studying is not some talent.. if you really put in the efforts you will get the results.
I have so much in me that I want to explore and be my best. But I am not able to come out of this daydreaming condition. Everytime I make up my mind... I am just following it for maybe one or maximum two days and again fall back into the habit of daydreaming.
I feel really ashamed when all my friends who are the toppers in my class score really well and I am just there around them who doesn't get the good marks. I know I should not compare and all those stuffs. I don't usually but I do feel
sometimes. But it's okay, I am going to come back stronger this time. I am going to study really well and next time onwards I am going to take my mind into control. I don't want it to fall back into daydreaming. I fell into the pit of reading these dark romance novels too....which gives me ideas for daydreaming or an alternative for daydreaming which really not doing gud for me. It's okay I didn't do well in these exams. Each time my marks comes... My parents are
seeing my results. I am just passing and not more than that. I am feeling stressed with everything going around me. Enjoying, involving in college activities, dance, sports and studies. I need to get back in control and do what I should be really doing. Improving myself, improving my relationships with everyone I love.
No one knows about my daydreaming and I said it to my sister and she doesn't understands it also. She just says it's a phase and it will go away. I hope it goes away but no this daydreaming has increased more and more. I used to daydream before...but not this much. Maybe it's the stress and new responsibilities people just assume you are an adult when you are just 20. When you are 15, they say, " It's okay you don't know this and that" and suddenly when you are 20, they expect me to know everything, they say "when will I learn about these small stuffs". (PS:- I don't know how many people relate to this)
I really want to start living my life. I don't want to stay in my mind. I just procastinate on and on and this happens everything. I am tired of this.
I am making sure this is my last breakdown due to daydreaming. I am going to be super positive from next time onwards. I am going to set myself some targets and fulfill them. Start meditation, writing journal and exercise. I will make sure I come to this website weekly...so that I will always know that I am not alone in this fight. I am going to struggle..and I know there are people struggling with this. There is no cure but you can reduce the effect how much ever you want. I am going do the same.
So these are my targets:-
1. Wake up early in the morning. Do yoga or exercise. Meditation. My morning journal entry - target lists for the day.
2. Start taking care of my body and my mind.
3. Informing my sister to give me a set of questions each weekend like a weekly test. And I am going to take them seriously and work hard for them. I am going to engage myself in improving myself and living every moment.
4. I should not get distracted by the college dramas and gossips. I am tired of them. I am tired of being involved in that and this. I just want to focus on myself now.
5. I am going to get bad marks this time and it's okay. No one knows what you are really going through.
6. I just beg you to not to give in to your minds craving.
7. I am going to write a night journal where I will observe the overall days progress...what I should have done and mistakes I did. In the end, I should find someone to be gratitude towards.
8. I am going to study in online study groups and these really helps me.
I have to start respecting myself and live my life. Because you just got one life and I am not going to waste it in my mind daydreaming instead of which I can start being myself and live my life. I hope I can do these and I am going to look into my progress for one month. I hope I can succeed... And let's just say there is no success in this one. Its all about improving myself. I shouldnt be disappointed if I give in...I should just get up everytime I fall back. I am already getting triggered to daydream but no I am not going to fall for the pit again and again. I am tired of MD. Okay fine
. Need to get back to study so I can pass tomorrow.PS:- Please do ignore my grammatical mistake. Not in mood to correct them and no time either.