Post by alysm724 on Nov 12, 2022 10:17:21 GMT
I’m a high schooler in my junior year and I’ve been daydreaming for as long as I can remember. I think middle school is when the daydreaming turned truly maladaptive. I started relying on it as a coping mechanism because middle school was a pretty traumatic time for me. During the pandemic, during my freshman year I found this board and it was life changing. Realizing I wasn’t alone in this was so freeing. During my sophomore year I think I was able to really reconcile with that trauma. I started going to therapy and it no longer took up so much space in my life. MD no longer served any purpose in my life. I’m 
whether it made middle school easier or harder, but I acknowledge MD as something that helped me survive. It was a daily routine to pace with music playing in my earbuds and escape to another world to deal with my feelings or simply because I was bored. I think I’m really ready to let go.
Fighting the urge to daydream is so difficult. I created an account on this forum today because I was so close to having a daydreaming “session”. That’s what I call them. I still daydream a ton, but doing it without the music and pacing makes it a lot less intense and time consuming. I’m trying to live life more intentionally because I refuse to live being controlled by my urges.
It’s been 22 days since I’ve last had a daydreaming session and that is the longest I’ve gone without one since I’ve owned a pair of earbuds. Which is probably around 5th grade. It’s incredible. I have more space to think. It’s difficult and uncomfortable but the sense of accomplishment and just the amount of time I’ve gotten back makes it worth it. I’ve never made it this far before and I feel like I’m inching towards being the person I want to be. Thank you to every person who’s posted on this thread for making me feel a little less alone in this. It’s scary to talk about this because it’s so personal and a little embarrassing but I hope that everyone here has the chance to find freedom in reality.
whether it made middle school easier or harder, but I acknowledge MD as something that helped me survive. It was a daily routine to pace with music playing in my earbuds and escape to another world to deal with my feelings or simply because I was bored. I think I’m really ready to let go.Fighting the urge to daydream is so difficult. I created an account on this forum today because I was so close to having a daydreaming “session”. That’s what I call them. I still daydream a ton, but doing it without the music and pacing makes it a lot less intense and time consuming. I’m trying to live life more intentionally because I refuse to live being controlled by my urges.
It’s been 22 days since I’ve last had a daydreaming session and that is the longest I’ve gone without one since I’ve owned a pair of earbuds. Which is probably around 5th grade. It’s incredible. I have more space to think. It’s difficult and uncomfortable but the sense of accomplishment and just the amount of time I’ve gotten back makes it worth it. I’ve never made it this far before and I feel like I’m inching towards being the person I want to be. Thank you to every person who’s posted on this thread for making me feel a little less alone in this. It’s scary to talk about this because it’s so personal and a little embarrassing but I hope that everyone here has the chance to find freedom in reality.
