MD-who knew?

I’m new here. I’m in my mid 40’s and been daydreaming my whole life since, maybe 5th grade. For me it’s disassociation. If life stinks-fantasy is better and easier. I won’t go into what my daydreams are. I will say it’s nice to know I’m not crazy bc I have thought I am for so long-it has caused depression. Just knowing I’m not the only one makes me not hate myself as much as I did before I found this “name” to my problem and know there are others like me. During my years of doing this it has tapered off, at times. It always comes back with a vengeance when life gets hard and I don’t know how to deal with reality. My father was verbally abusive and I didn’t know how to deal with that as a child, so I escaped. It has continued into adulthood and caused major problems in life-work and relationships. Thank you for your forums as I’ve read several. It gives me hope that I’m not all alone.