trippingnarwhal
New Daydreamer
Can you not see the same monster that I see? Of course you can't, because it lives inside of me.
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Post by trippingnarwhal on Dec 22, 2018 3:27:24 GMT
I dream of another me. One who is strong and independent. One who is feared by her own peers, but loved by her friends.
She is free.
She is not me.
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Post by Sam on Jan 13, 2019 5:11:35 GMT
I definitely do this too. I've always been unsatisfied with who I am in real life, so daydreaming about an idealized version of myself became my method for dealing with that dissatisfaction.
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Post by alvi on Jan 13, 2019 23:30:29 GMT
I definitely do this too. I've always been unsatisfied with who I am in real life, so daydreaming about an idealized version of myself became my method for dealing with that dissatisfaction. I do this as well, then I'm disappointed as I can never be the me that I daydream about. Its a no-win situation. |
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Post by Sam on Jan 14, 2019 0:31:41 GMT
I definitely do this too. I've always been unsatisfied with who I am in real life, so daydreaming about an idealized version of myself became my method for dealing with that dissatisfaction. I do this as well, then I'm disappointed as I can never be the me that I daydream about. Its a no-win situation. Exactly. I mean, some parts of the idealized-me I could have in real life, but they're things that take effort and time so why pursue that when I could just daydream about being like that? Its the instant fix that I so crave but can never have in real life because there's no such thing as an instant fix. |
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Post by Deleted on Jan 16, 2019 14:22:45 GMT
Really me as well. I just overthinking about it today
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Post by fantasia on Jan 25, 2019 11:39:24 GMT
This sounds just like me. I am confident, powerful (in my job), important, courageous, and most of all can support myself financially with money to spare... That's the me I want!! Know the feeling!
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sandwich
New Daydreamer
So Drake is now in my fantasies! YeetYeet
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Post by sandwich on Feb 21, 2019 0:14:54 GMT
Okay so another problem (besides MDD ) that I have never said out loud before is that I have an eating disorder. Many of my fantasies involve me being the perfectly thin, ceaselessly amusing, physically gorgeous person that I am absolutely not in RL. Idk if its my ED that fuels my MDD or my MDD that fuels my ED, but either way, I know what you're saying.
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trippingnarwhal
New Daydreamer
Can you not see the same monster that I see? Of course you can't, because it lives inside of me.
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Post by trippingnarwhal on Mar 27, 2019 20:27:57 GMT
Okay so another problem (besides MDD ) that I have never said out loud before is that I have an eating disorder. Many of my fantasies involve me being the perfectly thin, ceaselessly amusing, physically gorgeous person that I am absolutely not in RL. Idk if its my ED that fuels my MDD or my MDD that fuels my ED, but either way, I know what you're saying. I do the same thing:) |
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biancaj
New Daydreamer
english is not my first language, please forgive my mistakes
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Post by biancaj on Sept 14, 2019 23:02:08 GMT
I dream of another me. One who is strong and independent. One who is feared by her own peers, but loved by her friends.
She is free.
She is not me.
same here! I totally love your name! |
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biancaj
New Daydreamer
english is not my first language, please forgive my mistakes
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Post by biancaj on Sept 14, 2019 23:07:24 GMT
Okay so another problem (besides MDD ) that I have never said out loud before is that I have an eating disorder. Many of my fantasies involve me being the perfectly thin, ceaselessly amusing, physically gorgeous person that I am absolutely not in RL. Idk if its my ED that fuels my MDD or my MDD that fuels my ED, but either way, I know what you're saying. I have an eating disorder too, but everybody knows because you can tell if you see me. thank you for pointing out that ED and MDD could be related! I never thought of that |
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Post by vivee on Oct 11, 2019 20:06:46 GMT
How did it become like this? sighs
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Post by serenity on Oct 27, 2019 21:00:59 GMT
I'd suggest (in regard to how things got like this), for myself, its the lack of formally recognised diagnosis. This, coupled with my being 'high functioning'. Self-harm, eating disorders, etc all have overt symptoms,and are widely publicised. I've been MDDing for decades. I've always known it isn't normal, at least I assumed so, but didn't fit into any of the MH diagnoses I'd found on books or online. So, I just figured I had an active imagination, that as long as it didn't interfere with my family or job, then it was harmless. But it isn't harmless I feel, in my case at least. I've hidden away for such a long time I didn't know anything else. I've never achieved my potential, or gotten where I feel I should have, because I had no drive to succeed or achieve. My MDD worlds gave me victory and success multiple times everyday. Just finding DDIB, and reading other people's stories is pushing me to cure myself. I'm an addict, no doubt. But I can be more. We all can.
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Post by legendarydarkknight on Feb 22, 2020 12:02:21 GMT
I'd suggest (in regard to how things got like this), for myself, its the lack of formally recognised diagnosis. This, coupled with my being 'high functioning'. Self-harm, eating disorders, etc all have overt symptoms,and are widely publicised. I've been MDDing for decades. I've always known it isn't normal, at least I assumed so, but didn't fit into any of the MH diagnoses I'd found on books or online. So, I just figured I had an active imagination, that as long as it didn't interfere with my family or job, then it was harmless. But it isn't harmless I feel, in my case at least. I've hidden away for such a long time I didn't know anything else. I've never achieved my potential, or gotten where I feel I should have, because I had no drive to succeed or achieve. My MDD worlds gave me victory and success multiple times everyday. Just finding DDIB, and reading other people's stories is pushing me to cure myself. I'm an addict, no doubt. But I can be more. We all can. Lack of normal diagnosis is one way to put it. The true problem is that we don't fit anywhere. We are (or were) all alone in our small but vast prisons that are our minds. Every different person has a category that somehow fits them, no matter how painful it may be. OCD, ADHD, etc. But MaDDs have the potentail to be them all, but we're truly none of them. We're like floating on air with no truly hard ground to touch on. No real diagnosis, no real problem people see. Which pushes us all further inside us, and the cycle repeats that way with us going further within ourselves, getting worse step by step. At least, that's how I feel. Or hopefully felt until I found here and people that know what I'm talking about. Diagnoses don't really matter that much since the real problem is our unhappiness and loneliness, but that very loneliness and feeling of being unfit is the very reason we all feel this way. MaDD is something we fit on, a medium that can lead us to people like us. Being categorized means we can be cured, or at least save ourselves from this mental state that feels like a prison. Or, at least, 'out of place'. That's how I feel about this stuff. About this community. We all have hope to be way better than we are, and being a part of a community that people FINALLY understands us skyrockets our chances of getting better. |
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Post by nika on May 18, 2020 19:10:27 GMT
I do this too. The other me is sociable, likeable, carefree, pretty, and adored by someone 😔
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