Post by kipper on Feb 22, 2019 8:04:39 GMT
Let me start off by saying I’ve never gone this much into detail about my daydreams and despite the fact that we’re all daydreamers here, I still feel really embarrassed of the things my brain insists on dreaming up.
When I was younger, between 7-15, my daydreams were at their most intense and elaborate. I’d develop a storyline and I’d stick with it for days or even weeks. The dialogue was better, the feeling was better. It was all so much better.
Now though, I can’t keep my thoughts straight. My mind is constantly wanting to switch from one scenario to a new storyline to a new spontaneous conversation to a brand new universe.
I have no idea why my daydreams have kind of devolved? over time. I feel like I’d feel less desire to reduce my time spent daydreaming if the content of my daydreams were more consistent. I can go an entire day of physically accomplishing absolutely nothing. No going anywhere, doing nothing to better my real life. And yet, I’ll feel so exhausted. I’ll feel so emotionally drained because in my mind it feels like my life is so chaotic, when really it’s not.
My daydreams were so much more detailed and well thought out in the past, but now my mind feels like a jumbled mess. Not only do I constantly switch between multiple daydreams, but also multiple moods too. One moment I’m dreaming up something happy and bright and beautiful and somewhat motivational. The next I’m mentally having an emotional breakdown over my failure of a life while a mental friend comforts me. And then I’m falling in love and then a while later I’m having an absolutely ridiculous conversation with someone in my head.
When I first found these kinds of maladaptive daydreaming forums, I couldn’t personally understand why so many people wanted to stop so badly, but if anyone else daydreams in this way and feels out of control, I completely get it now. Idk what I’m even hoping for by posting this, but man I wish I could just slow my mind down and daydream like I once could. Not to be too dramatic, but I feel like a part of me has died.
When I was younger, between 7-15, my daydreams were at their most intense and elaborate. I’d develop a storyline and I’d stick with it for days or even weeks. The dialogue was better, the feeling was better. It was all so much better.
Now though, I can’t keep my thoughts straight. My mind is constantly wanting to switch from one scenario to a new storyline to a new spontaneous conversation to a brand new universe.
I have no idea why my daydreams have kind of devolved? over time. I feel like I’d feel less desire to reduce my time spent daydreaming if the content of my daydreams were more consistent. I can go an entire day of physically accomplishing absolutely nothing. No going anywhere, doing nothing to better my real life. And yet, I’ll feel so exhausted. I’ll feel so emotionally drained because in my mind it feels like my life is so chaotic, when really it’s not.
My daydreams were so much more detailed and well thought out in the past, but now my mind feels like a jumbled mess. Not only do I constantly switch between multiple daydreams, but also multiple moods too. One moment I’m dreaming up something happy and bright and beautiful and somewhat motivational. The next I’m mentally having an emotional breakdown over my failure of a life while a mental friend comforts me. And then I’m falling in love and then a while later I’m having an absolutely ridiculous conversation with someone in my head.
When I first found these kinds of maladaptive daydreaming forums, I couldn’t personally understand why so many people wanted to stop so badly, but if anyone else daydreams in this way and feels out of control, I completely get it now. Idk what I’m even hoping for by posting this, but man I wish I could just slow my mind down and daydream like I once could. Not to be too dramatic, but I feel like a part of me has died.
