Post by zichelle on Feb 28, 2019 4:12:17 GMT
I really don't remember when I really started Maladaptive Daydreaming. Only a few years ago did I start 
that is what it could be and what knowing what it is. I've always been a really creative kid, I love making stories and I love writing. But I also was pretty badly bullied, which has defiantly a reason why getting close to other's seems impossible and maybe even the reason I have these daydreams. I find Maladaptive Daydreaming both a blessing and a curse. The blessing is that I do make up some really cool stories in my head, some of which I hope to make movie and TV shows about one day if possible. However, these daydreams AREN'T real and that truly has made me unhappy. I wish sometime's that these daydreams were true and I wasn't living the life I am. I have a pretty good life, I won't pretend it's been extremely hard or that I had extreme trauma, but these daydream make me feel like I have nothing. Sometimes I'll go out of a daydream and think "
, I truly am pathetic," knowing everything cool and life changing only happened inside of my head. I've kind of described the daydreams to people, but they only see it as, "Oh, you're so creative, that's so cool," even though I didn't really explain that I can go for HOURS just walking around my house. It's gotten to the point where I have to take my earbuds with me everywhere since it's the easiest way to trigger daydreams. There are even specific songs that can trigger specific scenarios. I feel I can't tell my parents about this cause they'll just brush off or tell me that it's all in my head (which they aren't wrong about, it's literally all in my head.) I'm going to see a doctor in two days, which even then I debate whether I should tell them about this since this is such a new and not fully developed disorder. I'm 
what to do. I am glad though I've found an outlet that has let me express all of this.
that is what it could be and what knowing what it is. I've always been a really creative kid, I love making stories and I love writing. But I also was pretty badly bullied, which has defiantly a reason why getting close to other's seems impossible and maybe even the reason I have these daydreams. I find Maladaptive Daydreaming both a blessing and a curse. The blessing is that I do make up some really cool stories in my head, some of which I hope to make movie and TV shows about one day if possible. However, these daydreams AREN'T real and that truly has made me unhappy. I wish sometime's that these daydreams were true and I wasn't living the life I am. I have a pretty good life, I won't pretend it's been extremely hard or that I had extreme trauma, but these daydream make me feel like I have nothing. Sometimes I'll go out of a daydream and think "
, I truly am pathetic," knowing everything cool and life changing only happened inside of my head. I've kind of described the daydreams to people, but they only see it as, "Oh, you're so creative, that's so cool," even though I didn't really explain that I can go for HOURS just walking around my house. It's gotten to the point where I have to take my earbuds with me everywhere since it's the easiest way to trigger daydreams. There are even specific songs that can trigger specific scenarios. I feel I can't tell my parents about this cause they'll just brush off or tell me that it's all in my head (which they aren't wrong about, it's literally all in my head.) I'm going to see a doctor in two days, which even then I debate whether I should tell them about this since this is such a new and not fully developed disorder. I'm 
what to do. I am glad though I've found an outlet that has let me express all of this. 
