Adam
New Daydreamer
"Honestly, what are we doing here!? Racing or ping pong?!"
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Hello!
Mar 27, 2019 20:22:51 GMT
Post by Adam on Mar 27, 2019 20:22:51 GMT
Hi, I'm Adam! I've been MDing for practically my entire life, and have known about the disorder for about a year or so now. I was hesitant to connect with others who share similar experiences, but I realize that I don't really have anyone in my life who actually knows about my MD. I'm afraid to tell others out of fear that I may have a mental condition like schizophrenia (my mother has it) or that I just need to "grow up". I also suspect that I have some sort of mild autism, anxiety, and depression, but have admittedly avoided therapists/psychiatrists after an unpleasant experience when I was 16 (I'm also busy as all hell).
I'm 19, and I'm in my second semester of college (computer & systems engineering) in upstate NY, but I'm originally from the AL gulf coast area. I'm a racing fanatic. NASCAR, F1, IndyCar, Rally, etc, etc. It's one of my few lasting obessions and a huge subject in my daydreams. Normally, I'm typically not the main character of my daydreams, but I often project certain aspects of myself onto other characters, often from other forms of media. I typically have one, very general "main plot/universe", but I often make offshoots, depending on how I'm feeling that week. I typically don't make very "long" plotlines with my daydreams, although I've been increasing my plotlines a bit more recently.
Right now, I've gotten to the point that I can manage to not daydream too much outside of my room and get most of my work done. My grades aren't perfect, but I wouldn't attribute that to MD. In fact, I've always excelled in school despite my MD (I got into a very good college somehow). However, at the end of every day (or anytime I can manage to take a break from working on something) my daydreams are a very welcome escape from it all, and, admittedly, I don't want to stop. I just sort of want an outlet where I can freely talk about it without seeming like a damn nutcase to everyone else, haha.
Sorry if this seems to be a bit rambly and unstructured, but I've had a stressful week (and it's only Wednesday!) and I just need to get this out.
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Post by alvi on Mar 28, 2019 0:29:37 GMT
Hi Adam, welcome to the forum.
There's definitely no one here that will judge you or make you feel like a nutcase, no matter how weird and wonderful your daydreams may be! Hopefully this can be the outlet you are looking for. Take care.
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Hello!
Apr 2, 2019 9:38:41 GMT
Post by Deleted on Apr 2, 2019 9:38:41 GMT
Hi from me as well! Welcome :)
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