Post by fellowmder on Apr 5, 2019 16:19:24 GMT
So i wrote this something, basically a paragraph of abstract thoughts which i wanted to write as a poem. i wrote this when i were extremely frustrated of myself, continuously daydreaming for days. i never thought i'll post it as it is a bit quirky but hopefully someone might understand----- 
"I STAND THERE. ALL EYES PINNED UPON ME. They ogling over me, me becoming anxious standing over there with my bare back, the accustomed lines of work running down the nape. The blades arise after years of being on guard, my back bleeds, bespeaking the time I prepared to be present in that very moment. They creep out, as I hold my breath against the pain resounding through and through. I take the step forward, well aware they are out.
I hear them, my wings, fluttering, sonorous in the land of beyond. I let myself go. I make an alluring flight through THE LAND OF BEYOND. I am the fragile dandelion you want to feel, the maple leaf you want to catch, the sakura underneath you want to dance.
I didn't float like a dandelion or fly like the wind. I were a black maple, a dead sakura. I plummeted. I grew with no feather. I thought I made a spectacle of myself. Everyone was there. But there were no eyes. Reality of mine, a ghastly film of black and white. There were no sense of loss and no sense of regret. I were drowning within emptiness of everything, the plainness of everything, the absence of pain killed me. The REAL ME were so cruelly void of memories and hope. A hypocrite won't ever fly. The wings didn't grow for wind but for hell. They enclose me within a cocoon and the film cracks."
now now this is about me in a daydream where i am center of attention. dandelion, maple, sakura understand it as you want to.
after years of daydreaming, i realize what i were in reality and that nobody cared. i mean nobody has to care. i have written this with a glimpse within the fact that i yearned for pity until now. But surely i don't need it. it is stupid to pity yourself or ask of it from others, it just destroys you. i wrote this from a quote-
"never chase love, affection or attention. if it isn't given freely by another person, it isn't worth having"
T H A N K S F O R R E A D I N G.......
"I STAND THERE. ALL EYES PINNED UPON ME. They ogling over me, me becoming anxious standing over there with my bare back, the accustomed lines of work running down the nape. The blades arise after years of being on guard, my back bleeds, bespeaking the time I prepared to be present in that very moment. They creep out, as I hold my breath against the pain resounding through and through. I take the step forward, well aware they are out.
I hear them, my wings, fluttering, sonorous in the land of beyond. I let myself go. I make an alluring flight through THE LAND OF BEYOND. I am the fragile dandelion you want to feel, the maple leaf you want to catch, the sakura underneath you want to dance.
I didn't float like a dandelion or fly like the wind. I were a black maple, a dead sakura. I plummeted. I grew with no feather. I thought I made a spectacle of myself. Everyone was there. But there were no eyes. Reality of mine, a ghastly film of black and white. There were no sense of loss and no sense of regret. I were drowning within emptiness of everything, the plainness of everything, the absence of pain killed me. The REAL ME were so cruelly void of memories and hope. A hypocrite won't ever fly. The wings didn't grow for wind but for hell. They enclose me within a cocoon and the film cracks."
now now this is about me in a daydream where i am center of attention. dandelion, maple, sakura understand it as you want to.
after years of daydreaming, i realize what i were in reality and that nobody cared. i mean nobody has to care. i have written this with a glimpse within the fact that i yearned for pity until now. But surely i don't need it. it is stupid to pity yourself or ask of it from others, it just destroys you. i wrote this from a quote-
"never chase love, affection or attention. if it isn't given freely by another person, it isn't worth having"
T H A N K S F O R R E A D I N G.......