I was just
because one of Dimmer's videos got me
deeply about sharing our MD with other people and the reasons why we'd ever share.
Have you ever shared your MD worlds with anyone? Not in an "I have MD" way but fully share your world with someone. I dated someone years ago who would "write" with me, I'm
he knew it was an MD thing for me and he thought we were just co-creating a story. That's how I viewed it at the time, that we were writing together and I loved it, escaping with someone else. It was a little less lonely. We never met in person but had a daily life together on a virtual reality platform, so we could put on the avatars and actually go do the things we wrote about. MD on steroids!
Years later I pulled the story out again with my husband and suggested we write on it together and he was game.. but it wasn't the same. While creative and an amazing storyteller, he definitely wanted to put his spin on things and I just kept
nooooo.. you're doing it wrong.. that's not what happens at all! I wanted to dictate the details - I wanted him to dream with me.
And I started
about my why I wanted to tell him about my MD in the first place. It's not something I'm keen about giving up. I think my reasons were selfish in that I wanted him to know about it so he maybe would dream with me, and I could share my paracosms with him and be a little less lonely about it all, and when I really thought about it I don't think that's fair to him. Or maybe even to me, I don't know. I'm very attached to my MD, to all of my worlds and characters and I love them and I want to share them, like they are family and these are their exciting adventures I want to recount.. but I can't do that. The feeling I get from the MD forums I've found are "MD isn't healthy, don't do that. Let that go and focus on reality." But these other worlds have been my reality for so long, I don't have anything else to share with people. I feel like a shell just for my MD to ride around in.
I don't know where I'm going with this, just something I've been
about and needed to get it out. Thank you Dimmer for the thought provoking video!