Post by cali678 on Jul 5, 2019 22:18:55 GMT
Hey anyone out there, I just found out about MD today when I was going through social media and saw a post about intensive daydreaming and a comment below it said, "that's not a thing that happens to most people, it's a symptom of anxiety." so basically I started researching more about it and here I am.
I always used to have this intense daydream but it never really started affecting me until high school I don't think. Basically I have this paracosm in my head and the girl who is essentially "me" is utterly perfect. She has all the qualities I want, and she has all the qualities I HAVE but better. Whenever I have free time I go into deep though about this alternate world, and whenever I'm alone I act out what I'm
of and talk out loud as well. Music triggers it, and so do conversations I have with others. I'll be having a good time with my friends when something interesting will happen and I'll completely tune out from them and play that scenario over in my head but with added things and in a different body. My friends get confused why I was so talkative and then all of the sudden just stopped.
This has really started to affect me- whenever I don't perform perfectly I just beat myself up, "___ would have gotten an A, ___ would have made that shot" and it makes me feel horrible about myself and really upset that it's not actually my life. Also, I've started to lie to people because of it. When something cool would happen to the girl in my head, I would somehow weave it into my own life and tell my parents or friends the story, saying it was my life because of how much I strive to be like this totally made up and obsessive thought in my mind.
It's taking over my life and hopefully soon, with the help of others, I can stop this negative talk on myself.
I always used to have this intense daydream but it never really started affecting me until high school I don't think. Basically I have this paracosm in my head and the girl who is essentially "me" is utterly perfect. She has all the qualities I want, and she has all the qualities I HAVE but better. Whenever I have free time I go into deep though about this alternate world, and whenever I'm alone I act out what I'm
of and talk out loud as well. Music triggers it, and so do conversations I have with others. I'll be having a good time with my friends when something interesting will happen and I'll completely tune out from them and play that scenario over in my head but with added things and in a different body. My friends get confused why I was so talkative and then all of the sudden just stopped.This has really started to affect me- whenever I don't perform perfectly I just beat myself up
, "___ would have gotten an A, ___ would have made that shot" and it makes me feel horrible about myself and really upset that it's not actually my life. Also, I've started to lie to people because of it. When something cool would happen to the girl in my head, I would somehow weave it into my own life and tell my parents or friends the story, saying it was my life because of how much I strive to be like this totally made up and obsessive thought in my mind.It's taking over my life and hopefully soon, with the help of others, I can stop this negative talk on myself.
