Post by alshel293 on Jul 16, 2019 6:40:16 GMT
Hi. So I've been smoking weed since I was 14. It was never a problem. I would do it on occasion as a social thing. Always with friends. I'm 20 now and got my own apartment back in September. For the first time, I had a place to smoke alone. So I did. Being alone with my own place to pace and listen to music is already enough of a trigger, but being high...the music was louder, the daydreams more vivid, the mood is happier in my usually depressing daydreams. Weed started becoming a problem for me. Although my body is not dependent on weed, my daydreams are, and I'm dependent on my daydreams. Same goes for alcohol. I can't even drink alcohol without getting sick but I want vivid daydreams so bad that I drink anyways. (Only when weed isn't accessible) Now I blow my money on weed and have a need to be high the moment I have my hands on it. I haven't heard anyone talk about this in the MaDD hatter community. Can anyone relate?
