Post by alshel293 on Jul 16, 2019 6:50:01 GMT
So I just made a separate thread on how daydreaming has created a dependence on weed for me. Of course...that's bad. I want to further explain how it's ruined my life in the past few months.
So I got my own apartment in September. Before, I would daydream in controlled conditions. I had priorities that I needed to stick to because otherwise, my parents would punish me. But since having my own freedom, I've become dependent on alcohol and weed because of how vivid it makes my daydreams, and I have quit 3 jobs because I wanted more time to daydream, and I dropped out of school and lost my scholarship because my academics were suffering so badly due to the daydreaming. I can't pay my bills. My credit score is so low I can't look at it. I've been looking for a job and had an interview the other day, so fingers crossed. Daydreaming used to be a coping mechanism. Now it's creating all my problems. I can't get help because I don't have the money. It's a vicious cycle, I don't know where it's gonna end.
So I got my own apartment in September. Before, I would daydream in controlled conditions. I had priorities that I needed to stick to because otherwise, my parents would punish me. But since having my own freedom, I've become dependent on alcohol and weed because of how vivid it makes my daydreams, and I have quit 3 jobs because I wanted more time to daydream, and I dropped out of school and lost my scholarship because my academics were suffering so badly due to the daydreaming. I can't pay my bills. My credit score is so low I can't look at it. I've been looking for a job and had an interview the other day, so fingers crossed. Daydreaming used to be a coping mechanism. Now it's creating all my problems. I can't get help because I don't have the money. It's a vicious cycle, I don't know where it's gonna end.
