Post by fellowmder on Jul 16, 2019 15:03:37 GMT
So, currently i am a 12th pass student. College awaits me and i am, i guess in no position to study really. It is currently my vacation and i have been chosen for a university in urban designing. I want to be selected for architecture but results are yet to come around.
Regarding the uni i am applying, it is a crazy space where people work their brains out. I mean it is a place for those people who are total opposite of me. It is making me anxious. My MDD doesn't let me do anything in my entire day. I wonder how i am going to be able to put up with college. Every time i read about a post here, it is always how studies were affected becz of daydreaming and running away from reality.
Next to this is hostel problem. Uni is 1 And half hour away from home. I'll have too many model making things going on and working over there. Moreover i am physically too lean to be able to do anything. ME and my parents have decided for hostel facility over there-in sharing with another unknown mate.
Can u believe I'll be living alone(not technically but still). I were so openly daydreaming with my parents around (they took care that i don't follow the wrong way). What the heck am i gonna do without them for 5 years? What take do you have for this? It doesn't matter whether i'll be home or in hostel- the thing about getting away from reality and giving up on everything is a trigger to daydreaming, binge watching and eating. Its just that if i live in hostel i'll have more ways to get out of my life- i might ruin my life with drugs, alcohol or cigarettes. I MIGHT. I MEAN
BUT I CAN BE EASILY INFLUENCED.
To me daydreaming is a regret. Watching movies and dramas seems wrong. If i do those things it is so regretful that i want to daydream more. The more i think, i just don't think I'll fit in this college life at all. I'll be ruining life to such a great extent that it will be hard to get out.
I really don't know what to do. Can anyone tell me what i can do or just share something similar that you have gone through?
Thanks for reading
Regarding the uni i am applying, it is a crazy space where people work their brains out. I mean it is a place for those people who are total opposite of me. It is making me anxious. My MDD doesn't let me do anything in my entire day. I wonder how i am going to be able to put up with college. Every time i read about a post here, it is always how studies were affected becz of daydreaming and running away from reality.
Next to this is hostel problem. Uni is 1 And half hour away from home. I'll have too many model making things going on and working over there. Moreover i am physically too lean to be able to do anything. ME and my parents have decided for hostel facility over there-in sharing with another unknown mate.
Can u believe I'll be living alone(not technically but still). I were so openly daydreaming with my parents around (they took care that i don't follow the wrong way). What the heck am i gonna do without them for 5 years? What take do you have for this? It doesn't matter whether i'll be home or in hostel- the thing about getting away from reality and giving up on everything is a trigger to daydreaming, binge watching and eating. Its just that if i live in hostel i'll have more ways to get out of my life- i might ruin my life with drugs, alcohol or cigarettes. I MIGHT. I MEAN
BUT I CAN BE EASILY INFLUENCED.To me daydreaming is a regret. Watching movies and dramas seems wrong. If i do those things it is so regretful that i want to daydream more. The more i think, i just don't think I'll fit in this college life at all. I'll be ruining life to such a great extent that it will be hard to get out.
I really don't know what to do. Can anyone tell me what i can do or just share something similar that you have gone through?
Thanks for reading
