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Post by fellowmder on Jul 22, 2019 15:09:20 GMT
How many of you had currently had a vacation from school/college/work or had felt the experience of maladaptive daydreaming during that break? I am having a short vacation after high school and currently a week has passed over. I thought it will be great when school ends- no pressure. I feel a hell lot of stress and emotions since exams ended. I feel such worthlessness, the degree of that is skyrocketing that it makes me cry every morning. Every night i spend watching a series and then daydreaming. In the morning when i find people going about with their work, that feeling just escalates and i am always on edge. For a week i planned over things that i will do and when it goes down the drain i feel this pang of suffocation. It makes me wonder if i'll be able to survive a day in college. The uni that i am applying is a bit expensive and my mom says you should have confidence in yourself if you are going to apply. Although i realize a lot of money is going to go after me just like before, i just cannot stop blaming them somehow of what is happening to me( i know i shouldn't, it is probably because of my own low self esteem and zero perseverance that i am blaming things on others). Nowadays i just feel so pathetic of myself that i am always frowning. My mom asks me if something is wrong and says if there is nothing then stop frowning all day( not really over a harsh note but it just hurts a lot that they have known nothing about their daughter) This feeling is the worst. The kind of vacation my friends spent was full of joy, going out, meeting friends, just lazing around and doing anything. While whenever i do that, afterwards, somehow it makes me feel so frustrated of myself and i have no confidence to reach out to people or even face them. I wonder why i feel that. It is more so how it were during school - you don't spend time well and that puts you on edge. This all makes me want to daydream more - more about how i am successful in my future. I just want to hide somewhere so that no one finds the real me lurking in my head - i don't want to show anyone my daydreaming self. So, can anyone tell me what i should do? Thanks for reading
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Post by katie on Jul 22, 2019 22:00:28 GMT
You have to realise that the daydreamer in you is you in some shape or form. I talked to my mother about my daydreaming since then we have been talking about the real me and who that is and I am only finding that out through my main character. I know daydreamer's say I can't see me in my main characters at times but we spent so much time in our daydreaming world that figuring out who we are is part of who we want to be. Try and think of what qualities your main para or para's have that you can see in yourself and one's that you would like to work on. It's like personality building for me well that's what I call it think it works depends on what you want to work on I suppose.
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Vacation
Jul 23, 2019 4:08:43 GMT
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Post by fellowmder on Jul 23, 2019 4:08:43 GMT
You have to realise that the daydreamer in you is you in some shape or form. I talked to my mother about my daydreaming since then we have been talking about the real me and who that is and I am only finding that out through my main character. I know daydreamer's say I can't see me in my main characters at times but we spent so much time in our daydreaming world that figuring out who we are is part of who we want to be. Try and think of what qualities your main para or para's have that you can see in yourself and one's that you would like to work on. It's like personality building for me well that's what I call it think it works depends on what you want to work on I suppose. thanks for that katie. I know that thought about how our characters are a lodt part of us. It is just that at the moment i can't reach out to instantly become that daydreaming character of mine. Because i always had the access to being a successful and loved person in my daydreams i have never tried to change myself into becoming one such person. You know, what we call as being persevered to do something or become someone, because the feeling of emptiness and frustration of not being your ideal type is always taken care by daydreaming. I know i should address that. Thanks once again.
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Post by katie on Jul 24, 2019 18:10:12 GMT
You have to realise that the daydreamer in you is you in some shape or form. I talked to my mother about my daydreaming since then we have been talking about the real me and who that is and I am only finding that out through my main character. I know daydreamer's say I can't see me in my main characters at times but we spent so much time in our daydreaming world that figuring out who we are is part of who we want to be. Try and think of what qualities your main para or para's have that you can see in yourself and one's that you would like to work on. It's like personality building for me well that's what I call it think it works depends on what you want to work on I suppose. thanks for that katie. I know that thought about how our characters are a lodt part of us. It is just that at the moment i can't reach out to instantly become that daydreaming character of mine. Because i always had the access to being a successful and loved person in my daydreams i have never tried to change myself into becoming one such person. You know, what we call as being persevered to do something or become someone, because the feeling of emptiness and frustration of not being your ideal type is always taken care by daydreaming. I know i should address that. Thanks once again. No worries I know my character is adventurous and well known and I am not but want to be all the things she is including wanting to look like her I hate the way I look. But I am more confident about myself and I can to ease my daydreaming most of the time, and enjoy who I am at the moment.
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