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Post by willa on Jul 23, 2019 19:11:11 GMT
Hello, everyone -- I really need to be connected to people who get it. I discovered MDD a while ago, just by googling "daydreams too much" ... I was so flipping happy to find out it wasn't just me. But I still told no one until about a year ago -- two of my best friends, whom I've known since high school. I'm 46 and have been daydreaming like this since about 9 or 10 years-old ... so, a really long time. My friends were kind of on the team of, "Um, what's the big deal? You wouldn't be you without creating characters." (I'm a writer.) I wrote about it once and someone said I was being a little hard on myself for just day dreaming. I was both disappointed and angry, because it is a big deal ... it can be exhausting and depressing and makes my ADD go into high gear. To not be understood is a lonely place, as I'm sure you all know.
So ... I'm here because I'm trying to get it under control. I've done a lot of reading, came up with a plan, even wrote out a contract with time frames to daydream, ways to get myself out in the world and doing things, and I had a friend act as a witness, and we signed it.
I said: Daydreaming only after 9:00 pm. Picked three things outside the house to get involved in (yoga, book club, French language group). Started taking time in the morning to journal and meditate. But plan or no plan, it is HARD. Really hard. I picked a mantra to say whenever I started to daydream, something non-judgmental, to help acknowledge the urge but let it go. Sometimes it goes really well ... others I'm saying the mantra in my head every three seconds, fighting it. Feelings have been coming up for me, big time, which is good ... but still not my favorite. Ha. It is an addiction and I'm treating it like one, with some hope thrown in.
I quickly realized that going all day without daydreaming is not feasible all the time. Like today. Overwhelmed and feeling like I was falling apart, I let myself day dream for about ten minutes (fifteen?) and then stopped. I won't beat myself up for it. This is a defense mechanism for me that has been around for over three decades. I need it, but in healthy doses. I hope this isn't too long! :D Thank you for this forum and I hope I can be of help to others, too!
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Post by Herro on Jul 23, 2019 19:30:00 GMT
Hi willa, welcome!
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Post by Sam on Jul 23, 2019 19:42:59 GMT
Welcome to the forum! Its nice to hear that you're already working on ways to reduce the amount of time you spend daydreaming.
I agree that its really hard to go completely without daydreaming, as literally everyone daydreams to some degree and since MDers tend to use it as a coping mechanism, it can be doubly hard. I know that once you start daydreaming it can be difficult to stop, but perhaps you could try giving yourself small amounts of daydreaming on days that are very stressful or overwhelming. That way you can still use it to help you deal, but it won't completely take over your day.
I'm looking forward to hearing more from you on the forum!
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Post by willa on Jul 24, 2019 0:00:46 GMT
Thank you, Sam and Herro!
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Post by alvi on Jul 25, 2019 13:49:43 GMT
Welcome to the forum Willa
I don't think daydreaming can be stopped altogether but it can definitely be reduced and put to good use which it already sounds like you are doing with your creative writing.
Good luck with gaining more control over you MD.
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Post by Dimmer on Jul 28, 2019 14:28:15 GMT
I agreee that it's silly to try to stop completely. Like an eating disorder, doesn't matter how bad it is you need food to live; daydreaming is just what brains do and you can't stop it. Gotta work towards that healthy balance. Welcome to the forum!
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Post by bunnyears on Aug 20, 2019 16:51:04 GMT
Willa, I see that you are channeling the daydreaming to writing. I started that too. I think it makes me think that I'm doing something with this daydreaming and it turns out to be productive when otherwise I'm just wasting time doing nothing. It is hard however to say and force myself to dream only for few hours a day, when I'm not at work. This week has been hard for me as I am neglecting work. I'm planning to get back to writing later and get it all out, but I need to concentrate at work and having trouble. I'm normally good at the job I do, but when my mind goes somewhere the lack of concetration causes me to make a lot of mistakes. I forget what I was doing just minutes ago before the day dream interrupted my work thoughts.
From your experience, when you finish writing out the story, does your daydream changes or still continues? Do you go back to the stories that you already wrote?
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