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Post by biscuit on Aug 6, 2019 10:01:11 GMT
Just curious to find out if there are others like me- I appreciate my MD most of the time but sometimes it's.. Uncomfortable. It's almost as if every positive has an equal negative. For example- Pro: I talk to myself (more like whisper out loud) every now and then throughout the day. My self-chatter helps me concentrate on one thing at a time (even though the back of my mind is still having a field day), but it's also fun. It gives me those Happy-Go-Lucky vibes, and I make myself laugh a lot because I'm silly with it most of the time. *I also casually talk to my dog a lot 'cause he's my little sidekick and I love him. Cons: When I talk to myself inside my head (daydreaming when I'm NOT occupying myself), it escalates to scenario-based audio (such as replaying conversations with other -real- people, reenacting their tone of voice, imagining different outcomes of the same situation) to the point where, for a split second, it sounds like that person is sitting next to me, speaking loud and clear. It startles the crap out of me,  . It's like when you say the same word out loud over and over again to the point where it starts to sound weird and loses its meaning. Except this is saying something over and over in your head to the point where you can actually hear it. I have other examples that I'll share, I just didn't want to start you off with a book to read, . Can you relate? Do you love your MD? Hate it? Or both? |
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Post by biscuit on Aug 6, 2019 10:47:51 GMT
Pro: I love the visuals. When I'm listening to music, it takes me back to that concert.. I'm there again. I'm on the outside looking in and I like what I see- It's even better than my memories because in my MD, I'm the perfect version of myself and everything happens they way I want it to. It makes me happy and it gives me a natural high. *For me, music helps me function- It occupies the back of my mind while I'm trying to focus on what I'm actually doing. Con: The visuals scare me sometimes. If I'm ever sitting in silence.. That's when I lose myself the most, but I'm okay with that (it's never really silent in my head anyway, since my thoughts are always racing). Whether it's a comfortable silence with a loved one, or an awkward silence that comes with that untimely break in conversation. I'll be lost in thought, then when I go to look at someone or something.. I'll see what I was  about, manifested in it's own unique way. 1. Existentialism and Death- I've went to continue a conversation with a loved one before, went to look at him and for a split second- He was a corpse. His eyes were missing, along with his lips and most of his skin. It was disturbing. 2. Spiders- One night, I pulled up to my house, parked my car and when the overhead light came on- What briefly looked like a bunch of spiders crawling on my lap was just the flower pattern on my pants. I flipped out (who wouldn't). |
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Post by biscuit on Aug 6, 2019 10:58:56 GMT
I have other sensory examples, such as sense of smell and sense of touch, but I think nostalgia and empathy have a hand in that.
Ex. You meet someone and they smell really nice. Later on that day (or even the next), you have a fleeting thought about that person and out of nowhere- You can smell them again as if they were right there in front of you.
Ex. You broke a finger a couple years ago, and it sucked. Then when you see someone break theirs, you can feel the pain in your own finger when you hear their bone snap.
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Post by Sam on Aug 6, 2019 18:58:26 GMT
I can't say I've really experienced the sensory stuff that you're describing. I get sensory overload very easily so I generally try to make my daydreams engaging but not completely overwhelming sensory-wise. Additionally, I tend to daydream and be otherwise checked out from reality as a kind of shield against sensory overload.
However, I (like a lot of people here) have a kind of love/hate relationship with my daydreaming. I love it because its gotten me through some horrible shit. But it also prevents me from doing a lot of the things that I would like to do, things that would improve my quality of life.
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Post by chara on Aug 6, 2019 21:46:53 GMT
Just curious to find out if there are others like me- I appreciate my MD most of the time but sometimes it's.. Uncomfortable. It's almost as if every positive has an equal negative. For example- Pro: I talk to myself (more like whisper out loud) every now and then throughout the day. My self-chatter helps me concentrate on one thing at a time (even though the back of my mind is still having a field day), but it's also fun. It gives me those Happy-Go-Lucky vibes, and I make myself laugh a lot because I'm silly with it most of the time. *I also casually talk to my dog a lot 'cause he's my little sidekick and I love him. Cons: When I talk to myself inside my head (daydreaming when I'm NOT occupying myself), it escalates to scenario-based audio (such as replaying conversations with other -real- people, reenacting their tone of voice, imagining different outcomes of the same situation) to the point where, for a split second, it sounds like that person is sitting next to me, speaking loud and clear. It startles the crap out of me, . It's like when you say the same word out loud over and over again to the point where it starts to sound weird and loses its meaning. Except this is saying something over and over in your head to the point where you can actually hear it. I have other examples that I'll share, I just didn't want to start you off with a book to read, . Can you relate? Do you love your MD? Hate it? Or both? Both for me as sometimes when I’m relaxing at home, bored it gives me a whole world to escape to when I daydream. I can’t necessarily choose when to start daydreaming but watching a tv show usually triggers it! Pacing my bedroom daydreaming for hours sometimes passes the time if I’m waiting for something to happen in the real world On the other hand, there’s the trigger part of it. Like I said before, Watching a tv show causes my mind to jump start into hyperactivity and focus on fabricating a world around the show I’m watching. Sometimes this means I can’t enjoy my favourite shows and that’s just a pain sometimes. This is the same for music as I often listen to music while daydreaming. Furthermore, me talking to myself makes me sound a bit crazy to the rest of the people in my house :( Looking at other people’s replies it’s surprising how differently people experience MD and you can see how people feel about it. I know some people probably hate their MD but most of the time for me it’s just a little machine in the back of my mind making little universes  |
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Post by biscuit on Aug 7, 2019 6:21:33 GMT
sam > Thanks for sharing. I think there's no sensory overload for me because I'm just so accustomed to the Cons, I don't know any different. I just get startled from time to time, . I do wish I could focus more though, for a better quality of life as well. It's like not being able to focus on your academics because you're so distracted by your electives. chara > Thanks for sharing. I LOVE that analogy- a little machine in the back of my mind making little universes. It's perfect!
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Post by willa on Aug 11, 2019 1:47:55 GMT
It's both for me, definitely. I love and need my daydreams, but they can also get to a point when I feel like I don't have a lot of brain power left to concentrate well on anything. I feel scattered, stressed, very distracted and would love a switch to just turn it the heck off for a while. Ha!
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Post by julamad on Aug 14, 2019 6:57:53 GMT
I can totally relate to this, personally I love how I can turn any bad situation into a joke, I literally make myself laugh, on the other side if I have a task that is boring, making jokes is always more fun than getting the task done
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about, manifested in it's own unique way.
