Post by Christeena on Dec 8, 2018 18:13:00 GMT
Hi I'm Christeena and I'm in my last year of Academy, S6, (high school) in the UK. I'm actually fairly new to the website itself so I'm still figuring how certain things work.
As for my MD journey, I don;t think I've reached the end of my journey and I don't think I ever will. I also can't decide if that's a good thing or not XD. In primary school I was a pretty lonely kid. I would play imaginary games (to do with adventure) to entertain myself but obviously that didn't turn out so well cause to other people they just saw me running around the playground. I can't help but laugh when I think of it now. I eventually made friends as I was transitioning from primary to academy. They're still with me to this year as good friends but I don't think they quite understand MD. I don't blame them and in fact it doesn't bother me at all.
I properly recognized my MD last year. The stress of school started to get to me and the pressure of having to perform well in exams. So no, I'm not going to just assume that I had depression cause I never went to the doctors and I was still doing the normal things of life, I call it my phase cause it's over now. Anyways, I hit this phase last year and it was pretty bad. I'm generally an optimistic person and last year suddenly I wasn't. Slowly I realised that I was using daydreaming as an escape mechanism and it was spiraling out of control. I started performing worse and worse as the time went on, not only cause of my MD but also cause of my phase. An overwhelming sense of guilt of not doing work. All of this was clear on my report card on results day. Results that were worse than I even expected.
Despite all this I'm all and good doing the subjects I like this year but I again I need to get the grades this year or I won't get into Uni. I still have problems with daydreaming. It's one of the main things that stop me from working and hard to control. I definitely don't want to totally get rid of it cause it really does boost my creativity and I am aiming to go to Art school. It's a love and hate relationship. I love it sometimes and hate it other times. To be completely honest I've never been this open about my MD until this post. I really look forward to making friends here and I'd love to know your stories too. (P.S. Even tho I do daydream about normal life things I'm mainly a fantasy daydreamer) Sorry that was a long post.
As for my MD journey, I don;t think I've reached the end of my journey and I don't think I ever will. I also can't decide if that's a good thing or not XD. In primary school I was a pretty lonely kid. I would play imaginary games (to do with adventure) to entertain myself but obviously that didn't turn out so well cause to other people they just saw me running around the playground. I can't help but laugh when I think of it now. I eventually made friends as I was transitioning from primary to academy. They're still with me to this year as good friends but I don't think they quite understand MD. I don't blame them and in fact it doesn't bother me at all.
I properly recognized my MD last year. The stress of school started to get to me and the pressure of having to perform well in exams. So no, I'm not going to just assume that I had depression cause I never went to the doctors and I was still doing the normal things of life, I call it my phase cause it's over now. Anyways, I hit this phase last year and it was pretty bad. I'm generally an optimistic person and last year suddenly I wasn't. Slowly I realised that I was using daydreaming as an escape mechanism and it was spiraling out of control. I started performing worse and worse as the time went on, not only cause of my MD but also cause of my phase. An overwhelming sense of guilt of not doing work. All of this was clear on my report card on results day. Results that were worse than I even expected.
Despite all this I'm all and good doing the subjects I like this year but I again I need to get the grades this year or I won't get into Uni. I still have problems with daydreaming. It's one of the main things that stop me from working and hard to control. I definitely don't want to totally get rid of it cause it really does boost my creativity and I am aiming to go to Art school. It's a love and hate relationship. I love it sometimes and hate it other times. To be completely honest I've never been this open about my MD until this post. I really look forward to making friends here and I'd love to know your stories too. (P.S. Even tho I do daydream about normal life things I'm mainly a fantasy daydreamer) Sorry that was a long post.
