Post by uhhmars on Aug 14, 2019 8:36:10 GMT
Hey everyone
My names Mars, I found out about Maladaptive daydreaming a while ago but only really realized that was what I'd been doing this year I guess, maybe last year, hard to tell. But I've been doing it more or less my whole life.
I've always used it as an escape, I've had a far from ideal life, so having somewhere to disappear into really helps combat all the nasty things and feelings of being alone. But I'm in a better situation now, still dealing with the after effects of trauma but in a better place to do so. However I cant drop my daydreaming. Its very life consuming, and I want to live in the real world instead of in my own head, but how do you kick a habit you've had for as long as you can remember?? Its all very hard to get my head around, I feel like I've lost so much of my life just dreaming it away... Its gotten to the point recently where I don't recognize myself in the mirror, its like seeing an actor playing my life out for me, and things like my room and bed feel foreign, like they aren't really mine. I don't know who I am, because I've spent so long being and dreaming up someone else. I just want to be real again.
Hey, if you made it to the end of this post thanks for reading it, its nice to be heard.
My names Mars, I found out about Maladaptive daydreaming a while ago but only really realized that was what I'd been doing this year I guess, maybe last year, hard to tell. But I've been doing it more or less my whole life.
I've always used it as an escape, I've had a far from ideal life, so having somewhere to disappear into really helps combat all the nasty things and feelings of being alone. But I'm in a better situation now, still dealing with the after effects of trauma but in a better place to do so. However I cant drop my daydreaming. Its very life consuming, and I want to live in the real world instead of in my own head, but how do you kick a habit you've had for as long as you can remember?? Its all very hard to get my head around, I feel like I've lost so much of my life just dreaming it away... Its gotten to the point recently where I don't recognize myself in the mirror, its like seeing an actor playing my life out for me, and things like my room and bed feel foreign, like they aren't really mine. I don't know who I am, because I've spent so long being and dreaming up someone else. I just want to be real again.
Hey, if you made it to the end of this post thanks for reading it, its nice to be heard.
